phew......
One problem down. 4 to go.
I hate being so damn depressed. Its not me. I'm aisha the elshihibi. Granted I've always been a glass half empty chiceta, but its been awhile since I've been like this. Half the crap I write in this journal, had you seen me that day, you never would of guessed any event occured.
Aisha is truly an amazing actress and people pleaser. And a strong believer in not being the dark cloud of an evening. If your out, you are out to have fun. Put all emotions on the backburner, slap an ass, and do the sprinkler. Center of attention, laughter is my fuel, and my medication.
But as I posted on myspace, my aishaness has died. After the three car accident with 3 friends on saturday while we were moving, it was the boulder that started the avalanch. I was gonna say the whole straw that broke the camels back, but the event on saturday cannot be compared to a straw.
The second I feel like I have control, 3 other things go wrong. Never small. its always been like that. This has been the worst month of my life.
My aishaness has never died, it just hibernates. In due time, fake happyness will be back. Hopefully soon. Fake it till you make it.
I hate being so damn depressed. Its not me. I'm aisha the elshihibi. Granted I've always been a glass half empty chiceta, but its been awhile since I've been like this. Half the crap I write in this journal, had you seen me that day, you never would of guessed any event occured.
Aisha is truly an amazing actress and people pleaser. And a strong believer in not being the dark cloud of an evening. If your out, you are out to have fun. Put all emotions on the backburner, slap an ass, and do the sprinkler. Center of attention, laughter is my fuel, and my medication.
But as I posted on myspace, my aishaness has died. After the three car accident with 3 friends on saturday while we were moving, it was the boulder that started the avalanch. I was gonna say the whole straw that broke the camels back, but the event on saturday cannot be compared to a straw.
The second I feel like I have control, 3 other things go wrong. Never small. its always been like that. This has been the worst month of my life.
My aishaness has never died, it just hibernates. In due time, fake happyness will be back. Hopefully soon. Fake it till you make it.