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As I've gotten older, Christmas has become more and more alienating. i guess i had more jewish friends when i was younger. i've probably been watching too much tv, too. and it doesn't help that my parents are hush hush dreaming of moving to israel and are constantly discussing the anti-semitism they feel here.
anyways, if any of you are in palo alto and get bored of waiting for santa today or tomorrow, feel free to call me.
So i had nightmares about my new job last night. i'm feeling very conflicted about the whole thing and very reluctant to talk about it. Basically my dad's boss remembered my dad casually mentioning that i work in video and that i was also a communications studies major(so i can communicate?) and he started courting me for this project a couple weeks ago. The position is using video and digital stills to create and catalog a series of troubleshooting/training courses for fixing/using a machine that measures the thickness of silicon wafers. I would like to glamorize it and think of it as directing, editing, producing, and distributing movies. but that's really glamorizing it.
i was hoping to spend this time between schools to gain art-world experience, take dance classes, cooking classes, business classes, visit family in France, visit Eric in China, work on vineyards across california, read lots of books... and of course work a mindless and flexible job to save for grad school.
but i signed those dreams away on Thursday. this job will probably have me working from the moment i rise to the moment i sleep. i will also have my very own "cube". If this were a better country with universal health care, i might not have felt so pressured to take this position but i have extensive periodontal work i need done and otherwise i wouldn't be covered. it will also relieve some of my parents' financial woes to have this third income in the household and my dad also put a fair amount of pressure on me. so i guess i have to stop thinking i'm 17.
Ryan, you are right that this is very unusual to land a job like this so soon after college(it has barely been a week since i graduated) and i am very lucky. this is probably more money than i will ever see as an artist, which is ultimately what i am. they hardly asked me anything during the interview process and i'm pretty sure i was hired because i'm a moderately attractive young woman (in the semi-conductor industry i'm probably like a supermodel simply because of my lack on noticeble deformities.)
i'm very confused about it all. i haven't even gotten a moment to rest since finals. i only have a few more days of vacation which i will spend sending in grad apps and saying farewell to eric. and hopefully seeing anyone who is back in town....
anyways, if any of you are in palo alto and get bored of waiting for santa today or tomorrow, feel free to call me.
So i had nightmares about my new job last night. i'm feeling very conflicted about the whole thing and very reluctant to talk about it. Basically my dad's boss remembered my dad casually mentioning that i work in video and that i was also a communications studies major(so i can communicate?) and he started courting me for this project a couple weeks ago. The position is using video and digital stills to create and catalog a series of troubleshooting/training courses for fixing/using a machine that measures the thickness of silicon wafers. I would like to glamorize it and think of it as directing, editing, producing, and distributing movies. but that's really glamorizing it.
i was hoping to spend this time between schools to gain art-world experience, take dance classes, cooking classes, business classes, visit family in France, visit Eric in China, work on vineyards across california, read lots of books... and of course work a mindless and flexible job to save for grad school.
but i signed those dreams away on Thursday. this job will probably have me working from the moment i rise to the moment i sleep. i will also have my very own "cube". If this were a better country with universal health care, i might not have felt so pressured to take this position but i have extensive periodontal work i need done and otherwise i wouldn't be covered. it will also relieve some of my parents' financial woes to have this third income in the household and my dad also put a fair amount of pressure on me. so i guess i have to stop thinking i'm 17.
Ryan, you are right that this is very unusual to land a job like this so soon after college(it has barely been a week since i graduated) and i am very lucky. this is probably more money than i will ever see as an artist, which is ultimately what i am. they hardly asked me anything during the interview process and i'm pretty sure i was hired because i'm a moderately attractive young woman (in the semi-conductor industry i'm probably like a supermodel simply because of my lack on noticeble deformities.)
i'm very confused about it all. i haven't even gotten a moment to rest since finals. i only have a few more days of vacation which i will spend sending in grad apps and saying farewell to eric. and hopefully seeing anyone who is back in town....