Not Another Rant
I can’t recall ever being this angry for such an extended period of time, but “anger” is pretty much all I’ve been feeling lately-anger at my job, anger at my boss, anger at myself-and it’s really getting the better of me. I constantly feel sick, and I’m also sick of feeling this way but it seems I simply cannot get a break already.
That new job I thought I might have a chance at getting? Let’s just say nobody’s hurrying to call me back, because employers of the 21st century do not have the time nor common decency to tell an applicant to his/her face whether or he/she is worthy of working for their prestigious organization. Now, I should know better than to get my hopes up, but alas I always do, so it’s my own fault, right? Honestly, I wish somebody would just have the balls to call me back and tell me what is so god-awful about me that nobody seems to want to give me a chance!!
Meanwhile my current job is screwing me six ways to Sunday and I am bottling up all my emotions in a desperate, pitiful attempt to keep myself from exploding at the first shmuck unfortunate to cross my path. This is not healthy, and come to think of it, this is not worth it, either.
And so my friends, this is why I’ve been MIA. I simply haven’t been in a positive enough frame of mind to keep in touch or do anything remotely enjoyable. Nobody likes a chronic complainer after all. One of these days I’d like to come here to do something more uplifting than bitch.
I’m sorry to have given everybody the shaft lately. If you’re disappointed in me, don’t worry; so am I. T_T