the time it takes to let go...

[airricka]

i can't take this. why am i still doing this? today, there were a bunch of people at my house. we were in the basement and i saw a news paper about the accident and of couse i saw robbie and lysh's pictures and got a little teary, so i went into my sisters room read it and balled. i left my friends to go in the other room and cry. and thats all i do. i can't stop thinking about it. i have dreams about it. still. why can't i accept it? why can't i forget it?! i'll never forget them. but i wish i could get that night out of my head. im tired of crying. im tired of it interfering with my life. i don't want to feel this way forever.

God...i wish i could take back time. i wish i could be normal again.
GOD WHY AM I SO SELFISH!?

i can see the headlights coming..they paint the world in red and broken glass.
^(still)