er stupid randomness
"some days go by i wish i were famous or mabe relgius"
Today i felt so helpless and so emotional that all i could do was cry.Everything has just gotten so much worse.My life is going nowhere way to fast.And I do not act nor feel old enough to deal with bills,and jobs,and living with a man i dont really love anymore.I skipped my teenage years and now that im 19 im so tired of being an adult.Ive lost so much of my poetic side i guess thats why im writing here instead of in my teen open diary.Because thats always bin my palace to let my creativity flow.I dont have any now.7am and i cant sleep i just lie here and wish with every breathe that its my last.I havent cut in so long,theirs always sumone in the way of it.I could write now but i have no gause or anything.And i should go to sleep soon.i dunno why,cuz im supose to?
I just wish i woulnt wake up
Today i felt so helpless and so emotional that all i could do was cry.Everything has just gotten so much worse.My life is going nowhere way to fast.And I do not act nor feel old enough to deal with bills,and jobs,and living with a man i dont really love anymore.I skipped my teenage years and now that im 19 im so tired of being an adult.Ive lost so much of my poetic side i guess thats why im writing here instead of in my teen open diary.Because thats always bin my palace to let my creativity flow.I dont have any now.7am and i cant sleep i just lie here and wish with every breathe that its my last.I havent cut in so long,theirs always sumone in the way of it.I could write now but i have no gause or anything.And i should go to sleep soon.i dunno why,cuz im supose to?
I just wish i woulnt wake up