randomthoughts
helloo ljjjjj
the past semester was a bit terrible but it still proved to be one of my best semesters. or maybe it was the best because i had to make the most out of it? either way, i did it. i was able to pull up my grades, hang out with friends and even make new friends. but that still won't change the fact that i was a mess last semester. i did things which i regret. and it was quite a handful of stuff. hah. poor me. and it sucks since at first you think you won't regret it because it's what you want so you do it. and next people warn you you'll regret it and yet you still do it. and finally you think you're doing fine (and you continue to think you're doing fine) until you stop and realize that you just think you're doing fine to "ease the pain" and it will sink in that you're really not doing fine.... and you regret what you did. woow. it's like i never learn. or maybe it's more like i think i know what i'm doing so leave me alone. and maybe when i'm left unattended, things just go wooohoooo and everything's just a mess.
well whatever. i'll just leave everything behind.
and you.. well.. it's really impossible to leave you behind (even though i tried..but it's not that i wanted to...it's more like i have to...) i really hope you're happy. you deserve it. so stay happy. i mean it.
anywayyy this sembreak is really a unique one. 3 weeks and i haven't set foot in qc. i have to pay tuition tomorrow but somehow i don't like going. if only there weren't any late fees if i pay next week. but really, i remember how i couldn't wait to get back to katip before in the past during breaks but i guess now things really have changed. i don't really have a reason to go back and stay there for at least overnight. plusss mum's been... lax? kind? lately. i mean now she's not expecting me to be up by 630 or 7. yesss before she would insist i cook breakfast or at least join them for breakfast. noow she really just lets me sleep in. i also don't get the usual why don't you read instead of watch or why don't you clean your room. none! i heard of that this break. i mean i cleaned my room on my own. because i wanted to not because she asked me to. and guess what, i've been watching tv.. like A LOT. and i can easily just ask for permission to go out with my friends. so all's good! well i know mum's still dealing with a lot of dad's stuff but i guess maybe it also comes with the age? haha. at least i'm hoping it is-- slowly letting go of her 21 year old youngest daughter. HA HA HA
so i have one week left till school starts again. not too enthusiastic about it. i mean it's school. and it's thesis time. and well, iunno what i'll be doing or what i won't be doing next sem. haha. iunno what to expect and all that shizz.. heck, next sem will be a great sem! i'll make sure. haha.
the past semester was a bit terrible but it still proved to be one of my best semesters. or maybe it was the best because i had to make the most out of it? either way, i did it. i was able to pull up my grades, hang out with friends and even make new friends. but that still won't change the fact that i was a mess last semester. i did things which i regret. and it was quite a handful of stuff. hah. poor me. and it sucks since at first you think you won't regret it because it's what you want so you do it. and next people warn you you'll regret it and yet you still do it. and finally you think you're doing fine (and you continue to think you're doing fine) until you stop and realize that you just think you're doing fine to "ease the pain" and it will sink in that you're really not doing fine.... and you regret what you did. woow. it's like i never learn. or maybe it's more like i think i know what i'm doing so leave me alone. and maybe when i'm left unattended, things just go wooohoooo and everything's just a mess.
well whatever. i'll just leave everything behind.
and you.. well.. it's really impossible to leave you behind (even though i tried..but it's not that i wanted to...it's more like i have to...) i really hope you're happy. you deserve it. so stay happy. i mean it.
anywayyy this sembreak is really a unique one. 3 weeks and i haven't set foot in qc. i have to pay tuition tomorrow but somehow i don't like going. if only there weren't any late fees if i pay next week. but really, i remember how i couldn't wait to get back to katip before in the past during breaks but i guess now things really have changed. i don't really have a reason to go back and stay there for at least overnight. plusss mum's been... lax? kind? lately. i mean now she's not expecting me to be up by 630 or 7. yesss before she would insist i cook breakfast or at least join them for breakfast. noow she really just lets me sleep in. i also don't get the usual why don't you read instead of watch or why don't you clean your room. none! i heard of that this break. i mean i cleaned my room on my own. because i wanted to not because she asked me to. and guess what, i've been watching tv.. like A LOT. and i can easily just ask for permission to go out with my friends. so all's good! well i know mum's still dealing with a lot of dad's stuff but i guess maybe it also comes with the age? haha. at least i'm hoping it is-- slowly letting go of her 21 year old youngest daughter. HA HA HA
so i have one week left till school starts again. not too enthusiastic about it. i mean it's school. and it's thesis time. and well, iunno what i'll be doing or what i won't be doing next sem. haha. iunno what to expect and all that shizz.. heck, next sem will be a great sem! i'll make sure. haha.