Is Today Wed. or Tues.? Dam...
Well i couldnt update my journal cuz something about it was in read only mode but now i can. well this weekend was fun i got drunk to forget somethings but it didnt happen and no matter how many people want to hang out with me over here i still feel like theres something missing. i need a girl, i need someone to come home to after work to go with me to parties, hang out with, someone i know will be there. i dont want a girl from the air force or a girl here i need someone who knows me besides my military life i dont think that will ever happen. it sucks so much not having anybody i see my friends with thier girlfriends and its like what ever happened to me? :( i need to find a way to get stationed in san antonio that way i could go visit home every weekend hmm. monday was such a lazy day for me. i didnt wake up till 1125 then went to class came back at 1430 then went back to bed till my friend tim came and knocked on my door. then i told him to leave and i stayed asleep haha i was soo tired. then tuesday i got paid 700 yeah that was fun so i got me a bigger tv, an xbox, some games, a couple of movies, and some cds. maybe that'll help keep my mind off missing not having a girl, hopefully (fingers crossed) yea i noticed my life maybe all about trying to have fun but its only that way cuz i'm not really happy all these things i buy are just cover ups and i hate that soo much. do you really think theres someone out there thats meant for me? i dont think i'm ever gonna meet that person. stupid air force keeps me away from where i wanna be i wanna go over seas to iraq and they wont let me what kinda stupid shit is that i'm volunteering to go and they tell me no, how can you say no? uggh! i'm going to these boring classes which really piss me off today i listened to a guy talk about "how not to marry a jerk" what kinda fucken class is that? i fell asleep more than a thousand times he did have some pertty interesting things to say though, i think i'm gonna mail order a bride from russia or something haha. well i got to go back to my stupid classes till i type again hopefully everyone is find bye.