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its been a while, lets see..
lately i've been very indifferent about almost everything it seems. things just appear to have the same overall ending no matter what i try and do to change that, if that makes sense. like i feel like i cant do anything to change whats going on around me, and that sucks. i just had really high expectations for this part of my life and it seems like its kinda failing miserably. maybe its just a rut that i'm in and things will snap back into place, but i dont really feel that way about it at all. i'm tired of feeling like i'm all by myself with everything that goes on in my life. i'm tired of caring more about people than they do about me, and getting nothing to show for it. more than anything this summer i'd just love to find someone who was interested enough in me to take part in my life, and to help me get out of whatever the fuck i'm in. this is probably out of the question considering i hardly ever open up enough to people for them to get to know me to actually make that connection, and blahblahblahasdas.
i've gotten back into the habit of buying cd's again, which is retarded because i cant afford it but oh well. on a lighter note, i went to a strip club last night and it was semi-fun. tonight theres a party going on and i'm hoping to have a good time, guess we'll see what happends.
lets all go campin'.
lately i've been very indifferent about almost everything it seems. things just appear to have the same overall ending no matter what i try and do to change that, if that makes sense. like i feel like i cant do anything to change whats going on around me, and that sucks. i just had really high expectations for this part of my life and it seems like its kinda failing miserably. maybe its just a rut that i'm in and things will snap back into place, but i dont really feel that way about it at all. i'm tired of feeling like i'm all by myself with everything that goes on in my life. i'm tired of caring more about people than they do about me, and getting nothing to show for it. more than anything this summer i'd just love to find someone who was interested enough in me to take part in my life, and to help me get out of whatever the fuck i'm in. this is probably out of the question considering i hardly ever open up enough to people for them to get to know me to actually make that connection, and blahblahblahasdas.
i've gotten back into the habit of buying cd's again, which is retarded because i cant afford it but oh well. on a lighter note, i went to a strip club last night and it was semi-fun. tonight theres a party going on and i'm hoping to have a good time, guess we'll see what happends.
lets all go campin'.