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WHY THE FUCK DOES EVERYONE HAVE TO BE SO FUCKING COMPLICATED, I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE FUCK I DID THIS TIME, AND NOW THIS TIME I AM ACTUALLY REALLY MAD, NOT QUITE PISSED, BUT REALLY MAD..........(rips out hair and screams for a while)..............................
WHY THE FUCK DID I GET INTO THIS IN THE FIRST PLACE?!?!!!?!?!?!?! IT ENDED BADLY EVERY OTHER TIME BEFORE THIS, AND FOR SOME REASON I KEEP COMING BACK, OH, WAIT, THAT'S RIGHT,
why the fuck did i get into this in the first place?!?!?!?!??! It ended badly every other time before this, and for some reason i keep coming back, oh, wait, that's right, BECAUSE I ACTUALLY GIVE A DAMN, I ACTUALLY CARE VERY DEEPLY FOR SOMEONE, AND IT FEELS GREAT, wait, correction, IF FELT GREAT, CUZ NOW EVERYTHING IS FALLING TO SHIT, SHE SAID ONE THING, MEANT ANOTHER, DID ANOTHER, CAN'T STICK TO WHAT SHE SAYZ, SAYZ JUST FRIENDS, BUT NO, HAS TO LEAD ME ON EVEN MORE, GIVING ME FALSE HOPE, YET AGAIN. SOOOOOO MANY PEOPLE CAN SEE THAT I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR YOU AND ANYONE WHO KNOWS ME, THE REAL ME, HAS TOLD ME THAT THEY KNOW THAT I WOULD NEVER DO ANYTHING PURPOSEFULLY TO HURT YOU EVER, BUT U DIDN'T STICK AROUND LONG ENOUGH TO SEE WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED, U JUST HAD TO BE U AND OVER-REACT AGAIN, AND THEN U HAVE TOLD ME THAT U WANT TO BE ABLE TO TELL ME EVERYTHING, YET U DON'T WANT TO TELL ME ANYTHING, HOW DOES THAT MAKE ANY SENSE, AND DON'T ME THE CRAP THAT U DON'T MAKE SENSE, CUZ NO HUMAN BEING MAKES DECISIONS WITHOUT MAKING SOME KIND OF SENSE OF IT AND THE REPRECUSSIONS.
AND WHILE I'M ON THIS RANT AND RAVE SESSION, I AM SOOOOOOOOO FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF PPL SAYING HOW MUCH OF A FUCKING DUMBASS I AM, OR HOW STUPID, OR EMBARASSING OR WHATEVER, I GET ENOUGH OF THAT AT HOME, AND JUST TO LET U PPL KNOW, I AM THE COMPLETE FUCKING OPPOSITE OF THAT, I AM FUCKING SMART AS SHIT, I HAVE COME TO VERY FEW PPL WHO I BELIEVE TO ACTUALLY BE ANYWHERE NEAR MY INTELLECTUAL LEVEL, I KNOW THIS SOUNDS COCKY AS SHIT, BUT ITS THE GODDAMN TRUTH, I JUST ACT THE WAY I DO BECUZ I FUCKING FEEL LIKE IT, DON'T LIKE ITM STAY THE FUCK AWAY, THATS ALL I HAVE TO SAY ABOUT THAT, STOP TELLING ME TO CALM DOWN, STOP TELLING ME TO STOP BEING SUCH A KID/IMMATURE, STOP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO UNLESS U HAVE ANY RIGHT TO, AND 99% OF PPL HAVE NONE, SO STOP IT...................
P.S. THE WORDS I LOVE YOU ACTUALLY MEAN SOMETHING TO ME
WHY THE FUCK DID I GET INTO THIS IN THE FIRST PLACE?!?!!!?!?!?!?! IT ENDED BADLY EVERY OTHER TIME BEFORE THIS, AND FOR SOME REASON I KEEP COMING BACK, OH, WAIT, THAT'S RIGHT,
why the fuck did i get into this in the first place?!?!?!?!??! It ended badly every other time before this, and for some reason i keep coming back, oh, wait, that's right, BECAUSE I ACTUALLY GIVE A DAMN, I ACTUALLY CARE VERY DEEPLY FOR SOMEONE, AND IT FEELS GREAT, wait, correction, IF FELT GREAT, CUZ NOW EVERYTHING IS FALLING TO SHIT, SHE SAID ONE THING, MEANT ANOTHER, DID ANOTHER, CAN'T STICK TO WHAT SHE SAYZ, SAYZ JUST FRIENDS, BUT NO, HAS TO LEAD ME ON EVEN MORE, GIVING ME FALSE HOPE, YET AGAIN. SOOOOOO MANY PEOPLE CAN SEE THAT I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR YOU AND ANYONE WHO KNOWS ME, THE REAL ME, HAS TOLD ME THAT THEY KNOW THAT I WOULD NEVER DO ANYTHING PURPOSEFULLY TO HURT YOU EVER, BUT U DIDN'T STICK AROUND LONG ENOUGH TO SEE WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED, U JUST HAD TO BE U AND OVER-REACT AGAIN, AND THEN U HAVE TOLD ME THAT U WANT TO BE ABLE TO TELL ME EVERYTHING, YET U DON'T WANT TO TELL ME ANYTHING, HOW DOES THAT MAKE ANY SENSE, AND DON'T ME THE CRAP THAT U DON'T MAKE SENSE, CUZ NO HUMAN BEING MAKES DECISIONS WITHOUT MAKING SOME KIND OF SENSE OF IT AND THE REPRECUSSIONS.
AND WHILE I'M ON THIS RANT AND RAVE SESSION, I AM SOOOOOOOOO FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF PPL SAYING HOW MUCH OF A FUCKING DUMBASS I AM, OR HOW STUPID, OR EMBARASSING OR WHATEVER, I GET ENOUGH OF THAT AT HOME, AND JUST TO LET U PPL KNOW, I AM THE COMPLETE FUCKING OPPOSITE OF THAT, I AM FUCKING SMART AS SHIT, I HAVE COME TO VERY FEW PPL WHO I BELIEVE TO ACTUALLY BE ANYWHERE NEAR MY INTELLECTUAL LEVEL, I KNOW THIS SOUNDS COCKY AS SHIT, BUT ITS THE GODDAMN TRUTH, I JUST ACT THE WAY I DO BECUZ I FUCKING FEEL LIKE IT, DON'T LIKE ITM STAY THE FUCK AWAY, THATS ALL I HAVE TO SAY ABOUT THAT, STOP TELLING ME TO CALM DOWN, STOP TELLING ME TO STOP BEING SUCH A KID/IMMATURE, STOP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO UNLESS U HAVE ANY RIGHT TO, AND 99% OF PPL HAVE NONE, SO STOP IT...................
P.S. THE WORDS I LOVE YOU ACTUALLY MEAN SOMETHING TO ME