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its over...my sex and the city life is over. thats it,no more, i've seen seasons 1-6 and quoted each episode. sad to say, i saw season 6 for the second time but the final episode (an american girl in paris part deux) made me cry like a lil baby, yes i cried for sex and the city.
i got to thinking, thats what i want, that's what i'm ready for...the endless, unconditional, cant live without each other love! i want that, i wanna be in a relationship. it's tiring and hard to play the field/game. i'm fully aware that i'm only 18 and i'm still young but what about those ppl my age who claim they've found the one. why is it, that maybe only for a time being, they have it. why can't i ever have it. and the only time that i've ever felt it was with a guy who turned out to be married. aint that some shit.
i want the fairy tale, but does wanting the fairy tale so badly make you desperate? at times i think that i do fall into the desperate catagory and once i realize that i actually am desperate, i start to rationalize myself. the things i thought of when i really just wanted a boyfriend. i just wanna have that someone.
i hate it when people ask, "do you have a boyfriend" i tell them no and of course they ask why....WHY?!?! um gee let me think, maybe cuz no one steps to the plate to be my boyfriend. and whenever i say i dont want a boyfriend, they look @ me like i'm crazy. i'm conditioned myself not to want a boyfriend just to hide the fact that i really do. i want a boyfriend!
i'm out
i got to thinking, thats what i want, that's what i'm ready for...the endless, unconditional, cant live without each other love! i want that, i wanna be in a relationship. it's tiring and hard to play the field/game. i'm fully aware that i'm only 18 and i'm still young but what about those ppl my age who claim they've found the one. why is it, that maybe only for a time being, they have it. why can't i ever have it. and the only time that i've ever felt it was with a guy who turned out to be married. aint that some shit.
i want the fairy tale, but does wanting the fairy tale so badly make you desperate? at times i think that i do fall into the desperate catagory and once i realize that i actually am desperate, i start to rationalize myself. the things i thought of when i really just wanted a boyfriend. i just wanna have that someone.
i hate it when people ask, "do you have a boyfriend" i tell them no and of course they ask why....WHY?!?! um gee let me think, maybe cuz no one steps to the plate to be my boyfriend. and whenever i say i dont want a boyfriend, they look @ me like i'm crazy. i'm conditioned myself not to want a boyfriend just to hide the fact that i really do. i want a boyfriend!
i'm out