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sometimes i'm not sure if i have real issues, or if it's just all in my head. i feel like i'm going nowhere. i feel like my efforts dont even matter. you're a fucking hypocrite, and i feel bad for letting you get the best of me. i'm weak. my need for approval from my all my bosses makes me that way. even though you're a manipulative asshole i still want to be accepted by you and i feel like i can never do anything right. i am not in the right place, i am not on a better path... i dont belong where i am.
i need a new job. but there are no jobs that will allow me to make decent money and be able to go back to school. i'm tired of dealing with people. what the fuck happened to me? i used to love working with people. i need to go on a vacation by myself and get a fresh new start... i need it. i need to go off on my own with nobody around or no tv or anything to distract me, and i need to sort out my thoughts and get my head on straight.
i need a new job. but there are no jobs that will allow me to make decent money and be able to go back to school. i'm tired of dealing with people. what the fuck happened to me? i used to love working with people. i need to go on a vacation by myself and get a fresh new start... i need it. i need to go off on my own with nobody around or no tv or anything to distract me, and i need to sort out my thoughts and get my head on straight.