unbalanced
so as of late i have doubts. major doubts about everything...and it is quite a mind bloggler... i feel like my heart and mind are not in snyc... like i know what i want in life.. but getting there and reaching the so called happiness.. is too much of a journey... there are de tours during the journey... however getting through the detours are more challenging than it seems...on the verge of giving up.. but theres a drive that forces me to keep going..... the summer is not as chill or relaxed as it seems...
with the whole idea to work full time.. something i have never done... since i am only used to work for 8 hours a week the max... working is not the ideal thing to do...however work and then enjoy on vaccation is the ultimate goal...
tv has offically lost its value and need for entertainment... i need to find something more... but what... i remain standing...
so had a walk of the summer today and by the time i reached my destination i was drained out on all levels... a simple journey was one that was confusing on different levels.. but what isnt these days... a bit eventful too...
i want things to be like they used to... when life was simple... and answers did not come along with the consequences...... like i know who i need.. but why dosent it seem to make sense on a whole... i would rather enjoy the moment than think about the whole range of possibilities... possibilities are endless... and there is no need to discover them all at once...
with the whole idea to work full time.. something i have never done... since i am only used to work for 8 hours a week the max... working is not the ideal thing to do...however work and then enjoy on vaccation is the ultimate goal...
tv has offically lost its value and need for entertainment... i need to find something more... but what... i remain standing...
so had a walk of the summer today and by the time i reached my destination i was drained out on all levels... a simple journey was one that was confusing on different levels.. but what isnt these days... a bit eventful too...
i want things to be like they used to... when life was simple... and answers did not come along with the consequences...... like i know who i need.. but why dosent it seem to make sense on a whole... i would rather enjoy the moment than think about the whole range of possibilities... possibilities are endless... and there is no need to discover them all at once...