Does it get easier?
I'm obsessing today. I can see it when I'm looking at things for work.
So, let me say, I basically do auditing work. I review contracts and make sure things are set up in our system correctly for payments. I won't go into anymore detail than that to say what I do, but it's for a big company. Anyway, one thing that makes me good at my job is that I am very tuned into details. But today I'm over-obsessing on details. Sometimes, small details that don't seem correct to me are okay. So, I had to stop what I was doing and create a chart for myself on what I actually need to be looking at, that way I don't get overwhelmed with the details. I think that helped a bit. I will mull over the chart for a week or so before I ask questions of my manager. That way I don't look like a crazy person freaking out about things, when if I had looked at it for a while, could have probably figured it out.
Anyway, I dropped my daughter off at the back up daycare again today. Like some sort of sunshiny miracle she did not freak out and try to fling herself at me again. She whined as I left, but she didn't cry. I don't think I could have gone through another foggy emotionally overwhelmed day thinking about how miserable she must be. Andy (husband) has Monday off of work because it's Veteran's Day (I do not) and so if our regular daycare is still out, at least we have a plan for Monday.
This weekend, while probably not super relaxing, will be fine. We are headed to my grandparents (I have a really young family) and Andy is going to go deer hunting on their land. I will not be participating in that, but Alexis (daughter) and I will hang out inside with my grandma and I'm sure my grandma will dote on her and all I'll have to do is sit there and make sure she's not being a turd.
I have crochet animals to make because I sell items at a local sort of permanent craft store and I want to turn those in next week. In my head, I committed to doing cactuses and animals. The cactuses are done, now I just need... maybe 4-5 animals and I'll be happy with the restock for the holiday season. If I can get most of that done this weekend, I think my stress level will go down slightly. Andy tells me I overcommit to making things, and I know I do. It didn't help that I had to teach several classes at Michaels (craft store) these last few weeks. I was anticipating having no sign ups for my classes! Well, that's what usually happens isn't it? When you're hoping for one thing, the opposite happens. It's not that I don't enjoy teaching, I was just hoping for those nights to work on my own items.
Anyway, it's 3:30pm here and I'm happy it's Friday. I will pick up Alexis after work, we will run home and throw our crap in the car and then take off. Andy will drive and I will try to work on those animals (if it isn't pitch dark by then). Today is definately a better day.
So, let me say, I basically do auditing work. I review contracts and make sure things are set up in our system correctly for payments. I won't go into anymore detail than that to say what I do, but it's for a big company. Anyway, one thing that makes me good at my job is that I am very tuned into details. But today I'm over-obsessing on details. Sometimes, small details that don't seem correct to me are okay. So, I had to stop what I was doing and create a chart for myself on what I actually need to be looking at, that way I don't get overwhelmed with the details. I think that helped a bit. I will mull over the chart for a week or so before I ask questions of my manager. That way I don't look like a crazy person freaking out about things, when if I had looked at it for a while, could have probably figured it out.
Anyway, I dropped my daughter off at the back up daycare again today. Like some sort of sunshiny miracle she did not freak out and try to fling herself at me again. She whined as I left, but she didn't cry. I don't think I could have gone through another foggy emotionally overwhelmed day thinking about how miserable she must be. Andy (husband) has Monday off of work because it's Veteran's Day (I do not) and so if our regular daycare is still out, at least we have a plan for Monday.
This weekend, while probably not super relaxing, will be fine. We are headed to my grandparents (I have a really young family) and Andy is going to go deer hunting on their land. I will not be participating in that, but Alexis (daughter) and I will hang out inside with my grandma and I'm sure my grandma will dote on her and all I'll have to do is sit there and make sure she's not being a turd.
I have crochet animals to make because I sell items at a local sort of permanent craft store and I want to turn those in next week. In my head, I committed to doing cactuses and animals. The cactuses are done, now I just need... maybe 4-5 animals and I'll be happy with the restock for the holiday season. If I can get most of that done this weekend, I think my stress level will go down slightly. Andy tells me I overcommit to making things, and I know I do. It didn't help that I had to teach several classes at Michaels (craft store) these last few weeks. I was anticipating having no sign ups for my classes! Well, that's what usually happens isn't it? When you're hoping for one thing, the opposite happens. It's not that I don't enjoy teaching, I was just hoping for those nights to work on my own items.
Anyway, it's 3:30pm here and I'm happy it's Friday. I will pick up Alexis after work, we will run home and throw our crap in the car and then take off. Andy will drive and I will try to work on those animals (if it isn't pitch dark by then). Today is definately a better day.