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My car is paid off.
My car is paid off! Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
It's not exactly official because I need to get paperwork and everything from them back, but when I submitted the payment online I got a little message saying that this will close the loan and collateral and everything will be sent back. So it's not official, but it's official! (I'm still scratching my head as to why my coupons had me paying through next March, my loan account said another number, and then when I paid it off it was yet another amount. But you know what? Don't give a shit.)
Otherwise what else of note is going on in my life?
- My public debut as a guitarist has been pushed off to a TBD time. Which is actually good because I haven't been able to peel myself away from a computer in about 2 weeks to practice. So I don't feel so bad now.
- I don't even know what the page count for this story is anymore. We're doing roughly about 12 pages a day (or we did yesterday) and we did a total of 40 this weekend. I've been getting about 5 hours a sleep a night and I regret NOTHING. I've thrown myself into this almost to the detriment of everything else and you know what, I don't care. I'm crying my eyes out and I'm happy. I haven't touched a drop of alcohol in 24 days. (Conversations came up last month. It wasn't bad, but it had the potential to be bad.) I'd much rather be wrapped up with people and places that don't exist, having the time of my life, than watching my slow descent to a very bad place.
- Another good side effect is that I'm kinda confident at the moment. I can look people in the eye and I actually made conversation with a classmate yesterday. This is kinda a huge step for me. I blame Loki, but I also blame him for my sleep deprivation, obsession with salsa, new found love of Earl Grey, and for the fact that I just randomly start cackling for no reason whatsoever just to feel myself laugh.
- Pissing off Loki too much makes him withdraw though, which he did yesterday. The lovely hate spiral of depression is there, waiting, as I found out.
- No plot bunnies for Black Pegasus yet (damn it) but I've suddenly found myself wanting to write Dark Tears. There is a lot longer of a ramble that goes with that, but I'll just say that I'm happy I want to write for the first time in forever. But regardless, all I want to write is Loki.
- This homework is going to kill me. It's now getting to 8 hours a week. And I'm getting a lot of pressure from my second, freelancy job again and I'm going to explode if I think about it. So I'll think about Loki instead.
And now I've been called back to real life. Real life sucks. :P I don't get paid enough money to make it worth it even.
My car is paid off! Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
It's not exactly official because I need to get paperwork and everything from them back, but when I submitted the payment online I got a little message saying that this will close the loan and collateral and everything will be sent back. So it's not official, but it's official! (I'm still scratching my head as to why my coupons had me paying through next March, my loan account said another number, and then when I paid it off it was yet another amount. But you know what? Don't give a shit.)
Otherwise what else of note is going on in my life?
- My public debut as a guitarist has been pushed off to a TBD time. Which is actually good because I haven't been able to peel myself away from a computer in about 2 weeks to practice. So I don't feel so bad now.
- I don't even know what the page count for this story is anymore. We're doing roughly about 12 pages a day (or we did yesterday) and we did a total of 40 this weekend. I've been getting about 5 hours a sleep a night and I regret NOTHING. I've thrown myself into this almost to the detriment of everything else and you know what, I don't care. I'm crying my eyes out and I'm happy. I haven't touched a drop of alcohol in 24 days. (Conversations came up last month. It wasn't bad, but it had the potential to be bad.) I'd much rather be wrapped up with people and places that don't exist, having the time of my life, than watching my slow descent to a very bad place.
- Another good side effect is that I'm kinda confident at the moment. I can look people in the eye and I actually made conversation with a classmate yesterday. This is kinda a huge step for me. I blame Loki, but I also blame him for my sleep deprivation, obsession with salsa, new found love of Earl Grey, and for the fact that I just randomly start cackling for no reason whatsoever just to feel myself laugh.
- Pissing off Loki too much makes him withdraw though, which he did yesterday. The lovely hate spiral of depression is there, waiting, as I found out.
- No plot bunnies for Black Pegasus yet (damn it) but I've suddenly found myself wanting to write Dark Tears. There is a lot longer of a ramble that goes with that, but I'll just say that I'm happy I want to write for the first time in forever. But regardless, all I want to write is Loki.
- This homework is going to kill me. It's now getting to 8 hours a week. And I'm getting a lot of pressure from my second, freelancy job again and I'm going to explode if I think about it. So I'll think about Loki instead.
And now I've been called back to real life. Real life sucks. :P I don't get paid enough money to make it worth it even.