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I will not be depressing, I will not be depressing...
I think I want to play a game that doesn't exist. At the very least one I don't have. I tried restarting FFX last night and even wiped over my 25 level saved game...and just didn't feel like playing it. I don't feel like playing anything. Which is utterly retarded because just look at the pile of games I've horded and haven't even started or only got a little bit into or want to redo again. And I have no games? How is this possible?
I want an escape, something with a story that I can dive straight into. I want it to be epic. I want something on the PS2 so I can lay in bed and play it late at night and be decadently lazy. I want something with characters I'll fall in love with and maybe develop an obsession over so I can lose myself in that as well. I want something that has to do with what I'm into at the moment, which happens to be epic sword and sorcery fantasy a la Elric. I want it to be new, I want to discover new characters and new worlds. I want it to not be so easy I'm bored, but not so frustrating that I want to scream or can't move on because I can't manage to leap across a board "correctly."
This game doesn't exist.
I have the DMCs to get through: not interesting. FFs & Kingdom Hearts: no thanks. Silent Hill: can't play at night, Lying Figures will eat me. LoK: hate the spot I'm at right now. Everything else I've already played or is for a different platform. And again, none of it is new.
I'd like to play Castlevania, but I can't cross the motherfucking beams because I'm an idiot. I'm tired of games making me look like an idiot. I'm frustrated enough in life, I really don't want to be frustrated in my escapism as well. Which is why I haven't continued AC.
Bah. I can't even manage to play Sims because I still can't get the new one to work for me at all and it pisses me off so that I don't want to play the others.
So I'm devouring the Elric books instead. It's interesting reading them in this order, and with the other Eternal Champion stuff mixed in. Sometimes it's cool. It certainly makes the stupid Vanishing Tower make a hell of a lot more sense. And yet I still don't like reading anything but the Elric stories. I'm stubborn.
I've finally made it to the chronological start of the epic, which is some of my favorite stuff. And is what I wanted to do for my birthday because the one other one I spent alone, I spent it with Elric. So I wanted him to be my companion for this one.
I'm still kinda full of rage Re: one post back. So yeah, sorry. I'm all over the place.
I think I want to play a game that doesn't exist. At the very least one I don't have. I tried restarting FFX last night and even wiped over my 25 level saved game...and just didn't feel like playing it. I don't feel like playing anything. Which is utterly retarded because just look at the pile of games I've horded and haven't even started or only got a little bit into or want to redo again. And I have no games? How is this possible?
I want an escape, something with a story that I can dive straight into. I want it to be epic. I want something on the PS2 so I can lay in bed and play it late at night and be decadently lazy. I want something with characters I'll fall in love with and maybe develop an obsession over so I can lose myself in that as well. I want something that has to do with what I'm into at the moment, which happens to be epic sword and sorcery fantasy a la Elric. I want it to be new, I want to discover new characters and new worlds. I want it to not be so easy I'm bored, but not so frustrating that I want to scream or can't move on because I can't manage to leap across a board "correctly."
This game doesn't exist.
I have the DMCs to get through: not interesting. FFs & Kingdom Hearts: no thanks. Silent Hill: can't play at night, Lying Figures will eat me. LoK: hate the spot I'm at right now. Everything else I've already played or is for a different platform. And again, none of it is new.
I'd like to play Castlevania, but I can't cross the motherfucking beams because I'm an idiot. I'm tired of games making me look like an idiot. I'm frustrated enough in life, I really don't want to be frustrated in my escapism as well. Which is why I haven't continued AC.
Bah. I can't even manage to play Sims because I still can't get the new one to work for me at all and it pisses me off so that I don't want to play the others.
So I'm devouring the Elric books instead. It's interesting reading them in this order, and with the other Eternal Champion stuff mixed in. Sometimes it's cool. It certainly makes the stupid Vanishing Tower make a hell of a lot more sense. And yet I still don't like reading anything but the Elric stories. I'm stubborn.
I've finally made it to the chronological start of the epic, which is some of my favorite stuff. And is what I wanted to do for my birthday because the one other one I spent alone, I spent it with Elric. So I wanted him to be my companion for this one.
I'm still kinda full of rage Re: one post back. So yeah, sorry. I'm all over the place.