Confusion....
we all act on basic needs but we always strive to accomplish higher goals, in some attempt to individualize ourselves from the rest of the hive that is human existence, we search through life, looking for something to give it meaning, from being the best at something to something simple as being close to someone but sometimes even the most simple things can be like moving a mountain and then finding out you moved the wrong mountain, she tells me she doesn't want me but then can't stand to see me with anyone else, she craves me but doesn't want to stay, I was happy all day till i arrived home, i wanted her and to tell her she was beautiful but i guess i didn't get to do what i wanted, of course in my life, that's about normal, nothing seems to work out right, every time i think things are getting better, something bad happens and ruins what joy i have, happiness have never been easy for me, most of my life, all I've known is sorrow, watching those around me hurting themselves and i try to make things better only to watch them die even slower, i searched for clarity and the military gave me some, i finally knew who i was and where i stood in life, it gave me independence and the ability to aid those i love but it came at a price, i had to give almost everything i loved and leave everything i loved behind and lose it