the darkness in my mind getting deeper everyday
im using so much self restraint right now. i almost flipped out at work. finished 3 ciggerettes in 5 minutes. then apologized for saying i was going to smack my manager in the mouth. im not sure if i am more dissapointed or pissed about what happened tonight. i guess what i shouldnt be is surprised. im not really sure what to do at this point. the more i think about it, the more i realize there really isnt an obvious correct path. anyways i need about a million dollars and somebody to help me with my lonelyness and hornyness.