My Final Thoughts

[airah4]

I've had an epiphany. It came to me tonight after I was working hard on a script with one of my close friends.

One year ago, I started a fansite on here (

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[airah4]

Mhm! Success is certainly how we define it. What makes us happy can be our success. We have every right in our lives to pursue our own happinesses, and if we can always be happy, then we are successful! I know that what I've gotten to do and what I'm getting to do now in my real life is my success and my happiness. So I also realized that while it isn't a good thing for people on the internet to devote their lives to hurting others on here, if that's what makes them happy, if that's what makes them feel better about themselves, then I should no longer challenge that. As long as they aren't harassing me anymore, then I shouldn't care. I think you're right about success too.

And agreed. There is something really beautiful about being able to have a community where everyone can feel welcome and happy and be able to celebrate one thing that connects us. Like AAA. I once felt that in the Livejournal Attack All Around community. But I soon learned that newer fans aren't really accepted well (otherwise I don't think I would ever have had to go through all this harassment) and that the members' needs aren't important there. The community I co-run might just be restarting and at 110+ members, but I know everyone is pretty content there, and I'm grateful we have so many and continue to grow. As the owner, when I'm on the internet working for my site, I'm thinking about all the fun things we can do on there together, aside from sharing news and updates. Yet the feeling I get from the AAA community here is that everyone is competing with each other to be "the top fan." It's all drama, and it's all drama I can do without.

You should consider opening a community of sorts, mickleditch. I think you would be a very good administrator.

[airah4]

It does take up a lot of time, you're right! And I don't blame you one bit for feeling like you might be lazy! I know I've felt that way before, and I think it's only natural to. On the other hand, there's also a lot of joy to be found in running a community, right? I think what I most love about running one is that I can meet lots of people, bring them together for an awesome group, and then provide updates. It's kind of awesome searching for good updates to share! I actually have a backlog of ones I haven't posted yet because I always find other ones that I wanna post first! >.<
And thank you for the support. I do it because I love AAA (I don't love any other group the way I love them) and I love running websites. I've done it for years and years, though mostly on other hosting sites and with smaller communities (though one of our Harry Potter communities had close to 1,000 members and ran for three years straight! ^___^). Running websites to entertain people is something I enjoy doing in my free time, which is why the drama that happened here was annoying. I wasn't running a community so I could deal with comm trolls, I was running it for fun.

I'd like to think, though, that if I did mod a comm, there'd be zero tolerance for flaming/harassment.

^ There's no doubt there. I know you would.