If I continue doing what I do

[air_man]

If I do continue doing what I do I will not go to nationals in swimming.

If I do continue doing what I do I will never be happy.

If I do continue doing what I do I will have pride.

If I do continue doing what I do I will have a lonely life.

If I do continue doing what I do I will have enough compassion to make up for the people in this world who harass others.

If I do continue doing what I do I will a hard worker with no personal life.

If I do continue doing what I do I will never have the true things in life that matters that "God" wants us to have.

I pray and hope that I change but I pray and hope that I stay the same. I want this life, to go the way that follows my way of life and not the other way around. At points things should balance themselves out, and right now nothing is balanced. The mean continues to advance with popularity and get whatever they want. The slackers have continued to get better while the tired work horses continue to be beatin' for not tilling the neighbors' ground.

Catch 22 is the likely term I feel that connects the way mi feeling right now.