Need to focus.
I am a gigantic stress ball. I'm thinking about a zillion things that I shouldn't be, feeling bad about a zillion things that are way out of my control and that I just need to forget about... I should be concentrating on the plan.
I was sitting on the greyhound on the way home a few weekends ago, and I finally figured out my plan...finish this damn degree, take a year off to volunteer and work to save up money, then go somewhere cool for teachers college...ever since highschool I've wanted to move to new Zealand... not sure why, but I remember me and holly started "saving up" for it...haha as if I still have any of that left...and I have cousins out there who I don't see like ever, so I have an emergency base if needed- I just need to get out of this place, out of Canada, far away from Toronto and its stupid repetitive adds everywhere, the pushy people, the ugly city...and go somewhere gorgeous... I can handle earthquakes for a year... who knows.
All I know is that I feel like I'm stuck if I stay here, like I'll be the same Ainsley forever, I wont grow into teacher material... I need a fresh start for that.
Anyways, what I need to focus on right now is tomorrow and friday: 3 exams and a Lab test... AGHHHHH!!!!!. Soooo...let's pray that my head clears, cuz it's not like I can even go for a run to burn off some upset energy. AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I was sitting on the greyhound on the way home a few weekends ago, and I finally figured out my plan...finish this damn degree, take a year off to volunteer and work to save up money, then go somewhere cool for teachers college...ever since highschool I've wanted to move to new Zealand... not sure why, but I remember me and holly started "saving up" for it...haha as if I still have any of that left...and I have cousins out there who I don't see like ever, so I have an emergency base if needed- I just need to get out of this place, out of Canada, far away from Toronto and its stupid repetitive adds everywhere, the pushy people, the ugly city...and go somewhere gorgeous... I can handle earthquakes for a year... who knows.
All I know is that I feel like I'm stuck if I stay here, like I'll be the same Ainsley forever, I wont grow into teacher material... I need a fresh start for that.
Anyways, what I need to focus on right now is tomorrow and friday: 3 exams and a Lab test... AGHHHHH!!!!!. Soooo...let's pray that my head clears, cuz it's not like I can even go for a run to burn off some upset energy. AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH