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one update from my sucky monday. Theres this girl who goes to fiu in miami who i'd been talking online for a couple months, she's so beautiful and sweet. Well over the entire xmas break we were talking and she kept saying how I was the sweetest nices guy ever and how she wanted me 2 be her b/f and spend all nite cuddling, when I got back she told me the nite before I came back her siters b/f friend told her i he really liked her and wanted 2 try to have a relationship and she said yes, that was a crushing blow, we did meet eventually and spent an hour in an empty parking lotnear her house making out at 330 in morning, it was amazing she said she had a great time not sure what to believe, the next nite we went to see hostel she held me close during the times she was scared and we kissed alot, she slide my hand into her bra and had me rub her breasts and lightly panted while i did it, once again an amazing time, she said she had a great time. afterwards she said we couldnt see each other again. I talked 2 her on monday and she said her and the guy are b/f g/f now and it would be best for both of us if we didn't talk 2 each other again and i tried to forget her. anotr crushing blow, not sure where to go now, seems ive been condemened to a semester alone in my room, like a prisoner only I've committed no crime. the weekend before that I had my buddy done here to help me with a movie, it was going bad andi wasn't sure I would get it done and he said look I came done here to get this movie done and were gonna find a way and we did! when I got rejected from lmu and had no place turn and thought I was finished my other friend said no we'll find a way lets go back to the drawing board, and I found um. the problem now is theres no one here to pick me up from the gutter. kind of ironic this girl had an away message she'd put up where said what do u do when the only person who can make u stop crying is the one whos making u cry, well now im exactly in that position. the only person who could have picked me up from a situation this bad was her and now she turned her back on me. guess I wasn't good enough. I'd ask for advice on the situation but im pretty sure no one is reading this. so back to my own prison.