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ok. well its like 3 oclock. and yes i do miss matt. i know its been a while since we broke up, but its not like im gonna stop thinking about him. cause i still do. i dunno, i miss having a boyfriend but i miss matt also. but then i think about how he was mean and you know nothing really made me that upset, but the thing that really pissed me off and makes me want to forget him was when we got back together but a few hours later he broke up with me. that was the most fucked up thing ever. anyways. i dont know why im writing about this. i guess its just something in the back of my mind. i really dont think he misses me or anything and thats fine. but i still think about him and stuff. i gave my whole heart to that guy. and i know it will never happen, cause ive been told he wants nothing to do with me and wants me out of his life, but i would go back out with him. i dunno, it was like we just went together liek we were suppost to. like when i think about when i would go to his house, it was so perfect. i duno. this is crazy talk, and its like. scratch this entry, its pointless. im just thinking about a lot of things. and things i miss. i wish i wasnt so attached and wasnt such an emotional girl. but i cant help it, poeple mean alot to me, and he meant the world to me. so i cant just forget, even though i know i have been forgotten.