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Just watched Peep Show series 1-3 over two sittings - oh my god what an awesome laugh out loud comedy!!
So the last few months have been a bit of a yo-yo experience for me. Playing to type it didn't take me long to figure this thing with Joanna was something I didn't want. Should have trusted my first instinct, I didn't fancy her. Succumbing to the age old problem of wanting a companion I took a look anyway and well yeah, she started keen and has been getting keener from there - woopdy shit. So doing the decent thing I told her we were just friends, and then a few days later kissed her. Then pissed off at myself had to go through the whole thing of telling her we're just friends again! Only to sleep with her last Thursday night....
My friends, alcohol and male inclination are terrible terrible things. I never had much sympathy for the mindphuckers of this world, but it really is so easy to get caught up in doing that to someone, easier than I would have ever imagined.
The kicker is walking home I felt yuck, totally yuck. Showered off and felt a little better but the whole day was a dead loss, hungover and tired.
That people are obsessed with the idea that we make a good couple is driving me to increasing anger. Like someone is trying to push you somewhere you just don't want to go - and sooner or later you're gonna come out kicking and screaming. I'm primed to blow!
I don't even really want to be her friend because it's some sort of sham friendship where I can't say what I think or feel for risk of upsetting her.
David has disappeared volume 19 - I don't know why I do it, really...I'm sorry to everyone that has tried to be my friend, I'm looking particularly at Kiran now. I just get so tied up in little distractions, these last weeks I've racked up 85 hours or so on FF12 - and shit Reddas has only just joined my party.
Ok had to pick up my mum, been on the phone and now thoroughly out of sync with this entry - later.
So the last few months have been a bit of a yo-yo experience for me. Playing to type it didn't take me long to figure this thing with Joanna was something I didn't want. Should have trusted my first instinct, I didn't fancy her. Succumbing to the age old problem of wanting a companion I took a look anyway and well yeah, she started keen and has been getting keener from there - woopdy shit. So doing the decent thing I told her we were just friends, and then a few days later kissed her. Then pissed off at myself had to go through the whole thing of telling her we're just friends again! Only to sleep with her last Thursday night....
My friends, alcohol and male inclination are terrible terrible things. I never had much sympathy for the mindphuckers of this world, but it really is so easy to get caught up in doing that to someone, easier than I would have ever imagined.
The kicker is walking home I felt yuck, totally yuck. Showered off and felt a little better but the whole day was a dead loss, hungover and tired.
That people are obsessed with the idea that we make a good couple is driving me to increasing anger. Like someone is trying to push you somewhere you just don't want to go - and sooner or later you're gonna come out kicking and screaming. I'm primed to blow!
I don't even really want to be her friend because it's some sort of sham friendship where I can't say what I think or feel for risk of upsetting her.
David has disappeared volume 19 - I don't know why I do it, really...I'm sorry to everyone that has tried to be my friend, I'm looking particularly at Kiran now. I just get so tied up in little distractions, these last weeks I've racked up 85 hours or so on FF12 - and shit Reddas has only just joined my party.
Ok had to pick up my mum, been on the phone and now thoroughly out of sync with this entry - later.