23 - This is Pain. Pain is Me.
[takes place during the Sessions. undetermined time]
It's when they put the pins into your skin. Pushing them beneath the surface. Hidden away. Just like you are. Can't be seen. Not by anyone. They see everything though. Saw you standing there before you were there. It's only a word. Four letters. There is an I in it, and I'm drowning from it.
Washes over you. Numbs you after the hours they subject you to it. Hours of endless time. Endless struggle against them. Proves nothing. Proves that you are alive. It's just proof.
It's the pressure on your spine. The arch of your foot as you walk over glass. It's the warmth of the blood as it pools on the floor beneath your broken body. It's knowing that you can't die. Not just yet.
It's the thoughts that overwhelm me at night. Thinking he'll never come. Thinking he's forgotten his promise. It's the letters I write struggling to keep my sanity between the lines. It's forgetting that I can't sleep until it's too late.
Pain, it's what I am made to withstand. It's what I will become.
It's everything that I am.
Everything and nothing.
It's when they put the pins into your skin. Pushing them beneath the surface. Hidden away. Just like you are. Can't be seen. Not by anyone. They see everything though. Saw you standing there before you were there. It's only a word. Four letters. There is an I in it, and I'm drowning from it.
Washes over you. Numbs you after the hours they subject you to it. Hours of endless time. Endless struggle against them. Proves nothing. Proves that you are alive. It's just proof.
It's the pressure on your spine. The arch of your foot as you walk over glass. It's the warmth of the blood as it pools on the floor beneath your broken body. It's knowing that you can't die. Not just yet.
It's the thoughts that overwhelm me at night. Thinking he'll never come. Thinking he's forgotten his promise. It's the letters I write struggling to keep my sanity between the lines. It's forgetting that I can't sleep until it's too late.
Pain, it's what I am made to withstand. It's what I will become.
It's everything that I am.
Everything and nothing.