Just know i wouldn't hate you if you tried...
well sitting in my room with strep throat (thank you boyfriend <3<3<3) i have become reflective, it might be the lack of things i've done today. but wow i was thinking about the massive change that has occured in a year. it's insane.
let's go back in time to one year ago....
here is meredith brier lee, sitting in her room doing her homework while watching friends or some such show. maybe talking online in the play room, if she felt like being social. she has long brown hair, is rather tan since summer just ended, shes probably doing apus reading. lets see, she was lonely and spent her friday nights with lisa and chara and christina throwing inpromptu parties at Charas house. she loved 94.9 (im admitting it) and american eagle.
well....
i'm still meredith brier lee, sitting in my room doing homework. but ap bio instead of apus. nope i'm listening to the get up kids instead of watching tv, my hair is dark dark brown and short and choppy. i'm pale from a summer spent working indoors. i don't like 94.9 unless nothing else is on and i dont have any cds. i havent been to a party at Charas in forever, i'm not lonley at all <3 i still hang out with miss lisa and christina and now i have all the great bridge kids in addition to my smaller hickory posse. jess is third wheel not me, im AQUILLA ONYX PRESIDENT! yes. i think the change is greater in my outlook on life.
college is looming ever closer, maybe its just the fact that i have other things to think about. but it seems less important. i dont want all my hardwork to go to waste, but i'm so tired of working hard. i want to live <3. im a lot quieter, as liz poplawsky so dearly pointed out in psych. class. my views have changed from being exposed to other countries, and other ways of life.
i dont want the same things anymore. ask me last year what i wanted and i wanted to marry some rich movie star and be a lawyer, no kids, live in a massive house.
how lonely, i want a small house after living in a flat in NYC or some other such large city. i amazingly want children, and i want to be a writer. just do what i love doing daily.
you only live once...