A brief glance
Last night everything was okay.
Last night it was daylight in another world -- it was another day.
I bounced up and down as the bus made its way down the street, my companion to my right side.
I looked over to the end and saw you sitting peacefully, pensive as always. What is it that you always contemplate?
My heart went into a state of shock and my body froze, fight or flight? I stayed, trying to hide my face from you.
Our eyes eventually met, im sure you could see nothing but pure terror in mine, but as i looked at yours
i saw amusement -- kind amusement -- i saw you smile to me and to yourself.
I cant believe i still remember what you look like when you smile.
I havent seen that smile in over a year and half.
The bus grinded to a halt on a street I remember but havent had the courage to walk down
for over a year and a half.
You motioned for me to follow you as you stepped off. I closed my eyes, afraid the pavement would reject my presence and swallow me whole as my first foot hit the ground.
Nothing.
The world did not end.
We walked side by side, not a word said between us as you led me to the house i know so well
the front door that is forever burned into my memory.
You looked so at peace with everything as you opened the door and i walked in.
I stood in awe in the center of the room, remembering everything, taking it all in. My companion sat down on the couch, as i looked up and saw collages of you and her together. I recognize her now.
You walked straight to the back, to your bedroom, letting me have a moment.
As you walked back out, you wore something completely different. Your blinds werent in your eyes.
For the first time in a year and half we looked at eachother with no contempt, no sadness, no fear, no anger. You smiled at me again.
I finally smiled back.
It was understood.
You forgave me.
We stayed staring into eachother's eyes, no flirtation, no hint of romance. Just understanding from one person to the other.
I found myself walking out of your house and into the street.
I felt outside of myself. I felt at peace -- you forgave me and with a single smile took away all of the weight that had been holding me down since we last parted.
We would not be friends, nor lovers, but mere aquaintances.
It was understood.
Last night it was daylight. Last night i went to another day.
Last night everything was okay once more.
I would give anything to stay in that dream. Live in that universe where we were okay.
Last night it was daylight in another world -- it was another day.
I bounced up and down as the bus made its way down the street, my companion to my right side.
I looked over to the end and saw you sitting peacefully, pensive as always. What is it that you always contemplate?
My heart went into a state of shock and my body froze, fight or flight? I stayed, trying to hide my face from you.
Our eyes eventually met, im sure you could see nothing but pure terror in mine, but as i looked at yours
i saw amusement -- kind amusement -- i saw you smile to me and to yourself.
I cant believe i still remember what you look like when you smile.
I havent seen that smile in over a year and half.
The bus grinded to a halt on a street I remember but havent had the courage to walk down
for over a year and a half.
You motioned for me to follow you as you stepped off. I closed my eyes, afraid the pavement would reject my presence and swallow me whole as my first foot hit the ground.
Nothing.
The world did not end.
We walked side by side, not a word said between us as you led me to the house i know so well
the front door that is forever burned into my memory.
You looked so at peace with everything as you opened the door and i walked in.
I stood in awe in the center of the room, remembering everything, taking it all in. My companion sat down on the couch, as i looked up and saw collages of you and her together. I recognize her now.
You walked straight to the back, to your bedroom, letting me have a moment.
As you walked back out, you wore something completely different. Your blinds werent in your eyes.
For the first time in a year and half we looked at eachother with no contempt, no sadness, no fear, no anger. You smiled at me again.
I finally smiled back.
It was understood.
You forgave me.
We stayed staring into eachother's eyes, no flirtation, no hint of romance. Just understanding from one person to the other.
I found myself walking out of your house and into the street.
I felt outside of myself. I felt at peace -- you forgave me and with a single smile took away all of the weight that had been holding me down since we last parted.
We would not be friends, nor lovers, but mere aquaintances.
It was understood.
Last night it was daylight. Last night i went to another day.
Last night everything was okay once more.
I would give anything to stay in that dream. Live in that universe where we were okay.