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Hey ya'll as to my mental state is extremely good today... Well today was just an excellent day. My mom told me before school that my grand-pa doing well.. better then expected and he shall live until christmas.. probably not next christmas.. but hey- he cant live forever. So I actually smiled for the first time in about three weeks.. on my own free will.. not just for my friends.. I actually enjoyed life today!! Lessons was sort of sad.. about the murders and stuff on NPR that mrs delorme saw.. for some reason.. it didnt bother me.. i was making cindy laugh so hard she was crying.. im guessing thats really good!! English was funny.. we were really hyper.. and lunch as well! oh boy!! thanks!! It's great to be back to normal.. it's great to be feeling great.. I'd never thought I'd feel this good again. I know the days ahead may be rough.. but i will try my dardenest not to slip back into the dreary stage... I'm sorry ya'll.. I know I worried you.. frankly.. I worried myself too. I missed so much.. not only school but of my life.. I didnt care what happened to me.. and for like a day i was going back to my old habits.. butting myself down and physically beating myself up... But NO MORE OF THAT!!! I know I've still got a long road to go with this.. I'm no longer worried that I cant handle it... I know I will be able to!! Thanks guys.. I know I wasnt really into the gratitude part.. but now i am.. Thank you so much.. This deserves a list of names in random order : Ben, Cindy, Emily, Dave,Hanna,Rich, Melissa, Bernie and Shauna. I'm so deeply sorry if I forgot anyone please smack me for my naivete'. Thank you all for putting up with me and sticking by me!! It really means a lot to know that ppl care for me.. thank you!!
~Ashley
~Ashley