Can I really start doing this again?
Hmmmm......
I suppose I will try to keep up with my journal. I would say again, but I never really did in the first place. We'll see how long it lasts.
So. Life lately has been amazingly boring and amazingly exciting at the same time. I spend most of my days at home taking care of Liam. I haven't been working, I don't go out with friends very often (pumping is a bitch) and I only have class once a week. Sometimes I get incredibly restless. Yet at the same time that I hate being so stagnant, I am absolutely loving watching my child grow before my eyes. He seems to learn something new everyday. And I still get warm fuzzy feelings every time he smiles at me. Or looks at me. Or breathes. I have to say I love being a mom. I may sometimes reminisce about my carefree days when I could go where I wanted and do what I wanted whenever I wanted, but I still wouldn't trade him for the world.
As for the more immediate, Ed and I are going to Orlando this weekend with some friends. We are going to Universal Studios/Islands of Adventure on Friday and then Halloween Horror Nights Saturday night. I'm really looking forward to it. It'll be the first time I have been able to ride a roller coaster in over a year! Also, this will be the first year I am able to legally drink at HHN. Guess who's gonna be toasty Saturday night! While I am excited about the "adult" trip, I'll admit I am very nervous about leaving Liam behind. So many worries keep running through my head. Will he cry when I am gone too long? Will he give Gay or Miranda a hard time? Did I pump enough milk to get him through the weekend? If I didn't, will he be willing to take formula? What if he gets sick? Can we get home in time? What if the hurricane does hit while we are down there and we are unable to make it home when we are supposed to? Lord knows I can ruin any fun experience with stress. But as Ed keeps telling me, he'll be fine. We'll keep our phones on us at all times.
I'm sure everything will be wonderful. Right?
I suppose I will try to keep up with my journal. I would say again, but I never really did in the first place. We'll see how long it lasts.
So. Life lately has been amazingly boring and amazingly exciting at the same time. I spend most of my days at home taking care of Liam. I haven't been working, I don't go out with friends very often (pumping is a bitch) and I only have class once a week. Sometimes I get incredibly restless. Yet at the same time that I hate being so stagnant, I am absolutely loving watching my child grow before my eyes. He seems to learn something new everyday. And I still get warm fuzzy feelings every time he smiles at me. Or looks at me. Or breathes. I have to say I love being a mom. I may sometimes reminisce about my carefree days when I could go where I wanted and do what I wanted whenever I wanted, but I still wouldn't trade him for the world.
As for the more immediate, Ed and I are going to Orlando this weekend with some friends. We are going to Universal Studios/Islands of Adventure on Friday and then Halloween Horror Nights Saturday night. I'm really looking forward to it. It'll be the first time I have been able to ride a roller coaster in over a year! Also, this will be the first year I am able to legally drink at HHN. Guess who's gonna be toasty Saturday night! While I am excited about the "adult" trip, I'll admit I am very nervous about leaving Liam behind. So many worries keep running through my head. Will he cry when I am gone too long? Will he give Gay or Miranda a hard time? Did I pump enough milk to get him through the weekend? If I didn't, will he be willing to take formula? What if he gets sick? Can we get home in time? What if the hurricane does hit while we are down there and we are unable to make it home when we are supposed to? Lord knows I can ruin any fun experience with stress. But as Ed keeps telling me, he'll be fine. We'll keep our phones on us at all times.
I'm sure everything will be wonderful. Right?