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I already wrote this..but lj keeps screwin' up my entries...
I feel horribly angry with myself right now.. I'm humiliated and confused, and I don't know what's going on... I can't control myself.. I don't know what's wrong... I've been so stupid lately..and I mean slow stupid. I'm not like that, at all! In fact, alot of the things I've been slow in, I'm usually pretty quick with! I've screwed up two fill in the blank note worksheets(how the hell is that possible!!?), I say things that don't make sense, and you don't even want to see me in guitar class... holy shit..and that's the worst period for me to look like a dumbass in... UGH! My dad's yelling at me... for the third time tonight, fourth counting this morning... Hah, like I'm not already having enough trouble trying to figure out what's going on... I'm way too overwhelmed here.. I mean, I'm fucking crying! It's NOT easy to make me cry. I want to crawl into my bed now..but if I do, morning will come and I will have to deal with feeling stupid all over again. Why the Hell would I want to hit the fast forward button?
...being yelled at again....
...someone, please just shoot my now.
I feel horribly angry with myself right now.. I'm humiliated and confused, and I don't know what's going on... I can't control myself.. I don't know what's wrong... I've been so stupid lately..and I mean slow stupid. I'm not like that, at all! In fact, alot of the things I've been slow in, I'm usually pretty quick with! I've screwed up two fill in the blank note worksheets(how the hell is that possible!!?), I say things that don't make sense, and you don't even want to see me in guitar class... holy shit..and that's the worst period for me to look like a dumbass in... UGH! My dad's yelling at me... for the third time tonight, fourth counting this morning... Hah, like I'm not already having enough trouble trying to figure out what's going on... I'm way too overwhelmed here.. I mean, I'm fucking crying! It's NOT easy to make me cry. I want to crawl into my bed now..but if I do, morning will come and I will have to deal with feeling stupid all over again. Why the Hell would I want to hit the fast forward button?
...being yelled at again....
...someone, please just shoot my now.