A lot of things...
Ah, dear...things are hanging on a wire...CenterLink's judegement is pending, and I have a few days to figure out what they are gonna be doing...that is gonna be really stressing...I need to rest...
*sighs*
Things will sort themselves out, as they always seem to do, and in the end I will be stronger for it. That is the way these things always happen...
I've decided that if things end up sorting themselves out, there are a few things that I have to do. I need to get back into the swing of things...I need to do those things that brought me joy years ago, but I have forgotten because I have not had the time...I need to take up writting again - I once had a skill there, and now it has all gone to hell because I have not practised it recently...I need to begin my occultic studies again, because that has become lax within me as well, plus the fact my mind has not been in the right order to absorb any of what I learn...I need to return to making things for the web, and trying to teach myself programming, I need to return to that with a certian fervour, because I am not going to get anywhere with my ambitions if I don't begin to learn and teach myself.
Ah dear... *streaches his broken wings*
Once this all passes over, I will re-dedicate myself to those I serve and honour, and to those I love and hold dear. I will rise like a phoenix from these flames and shine again with a light never seen before. I will overcome all that comes against me, and I will previal unscathed. That is my pledge to myself. I will become more of the person whom I should - and want - to be.
Many Blessings
Love, Wisdom and Truth
Ainan Sword-Bearer
*sighs*
Things will sort themselves out, as they always seem to do, and in the end I will be stronger for it. That is the way these things always happen...
I've decided that if things end up sorting themselves out, there are a few things that I have to do. I need to get back into the swing of things...I need to do those things that brought me joy years ago, but I have forgotten because I have not had the time...I need to take up writting again - I once had a skill there, and now it has all gone to hell because I have not practised it recently...I need to begin my occultic studies again, because that has become lax within me as well, plus the fact my mind has not been in the right order to absorb any of what I learn...I need to return to making things for the web, and trying to teach myself programming, I need to return to that with a certian fervour, because I am not going to get anywhere with my ambitions if I don't begin to learn and teach myself.
Ah dear... *streaches his broken wings*
Once this all passes over, I will re-dedicate myself to those I serve and honour, and to those I love and hold dear. I will rise like a phoenix from these flames and shine again with a light never seen before. I will overcome all that comes against me, and I will previal unscathed. That is my pledge to myself. I will become more of the person whom I should - and want - to be.
Many Blessings
Love, Wisdom and Truth
Ainan Sword-Bearer