where I have come from and goodbye
Well I have come a long way in my life since starting my livejournal. Outta high school, many friendships gone, and many heartbreaks later I am stronger then ever. I always think that what I have at the time is the best I can be but now looking at what has happened in my life I have realized things only go from good to better and the people meant to be in your life always are there. They don't test you or make you prove your friendship time and time again. My friends I have stayed friends with from high school, I love you all and you mean the world to me for being there. The new people I have met have only enhanced my life. I have at times realized that certain people are only there to try and tear you down, for whatever reason it makes them happy to make you sad. There really are those horrible cynical ill hearted people your parents warn you about, and sometimes they disguise themself as one of your friends. They fake it really good like it really matters, and they have to become friends with everyone you are friends with or meet and they get on all the guys they think you want even though you are taken or they are a real whore and take your sloppy seconds!! they even try and ruin the things that make you happy cause they can't have them, like your relationship. Sometimes you'll get a chance and your friends won't they may really hate you for it and blame you they didn't get it but really in the end it is only thier fault and a true friend would be happy for you.Oh and they may try to dye your hair black and call you a future trophy wife, steal your clothes and talk mad shit about you! This is all directed to one person, someone who I trusted and held close as a friend, someone I gave chances time and time again and all I really have left to say to you is Karma is a bitch Hun! And I don't feel as if I lost a friend on that one cause you were never a real friend!! Sometimes because of people like the one previously mentioned you lose a close friend or a best friend, I will never know the reason why me and Mal don't talk anymore but it sucks. She said something to Carley when we went to get Carlz cloths back that really made me wonder if this is how those girls saw it. They basically said stop thinking you better then everyone...... too bad that is not how it is at all, honestly we are prolly some of the nicest least stuck-up girls but what do you expect us to do when you steal our clothes talk shit about it and lie to us??? If you wanna play hard we are gonna play harder if you mess with my little sis I mess with you and if your nasty friend pushes at me I will throw her down some stairs!!! So I have finally learned how to stick up for myself oh yea and fight.
I have also learned that drinking in excess is never a good thing, it leads to a hospital visit, or punching boys,or all other kinds of ridiculous things. If your gonna drink do it in moderation and with people who look out for you!! Sweet 16 I know you always got my back!!!
I have also learned that there is no need to push away a guy if you truely love him, but if you do and he is a good guy he will work to be with you not just give up. Also working for something thats good like what me and him have is totally worth it because I have come to a point where I have realized there may not be anyone that will make me happier, he is my best friend, the only person that won't fight with me when Itry to fight,and the one that won't walk away and I love him more than anything for it!!!
With all that said, this is my last entry here, this was something I started in High school with my friend back then, and really I don't think I use this any more , infact I don't think any of the people I originally intended to read this even read it anymore. The friends that I am still friends with know how to get ahold of me, and I will most likely be posting on myspace now....so it's been fun, but it's time to move on and grow up....not write my shit on here so everyone can read it get all mad and write me mean comments!!
I have also learned that drinking in excess is never a good thing, it leads to a hospital visit, or punching boys,or all other kinds of ridiculous things. If your gonna drink do it in moderation and with people who look out for you!! Sweet 16 I know you always got my back!!!
I have also learned that there is no need to push away a guy if you truely love him, but if you do and he is a good guy he will work to be with you not just give up. Also working for something thats good like what me and him have is totally worth it because I have come to a point where I have realized there may not be anyone that will make me happier, he is my best friend, the only person that won't fight with me when Itry to fight,and the one that won't walk away and I love him more than anything for it!!!
With all that said, this is my last entry here, this was something I started in High school with my friend back then, and really I don't think I use this any more , infact I don't think any of the people I originally intended to read this even read it anymore. The friends that I am still friends with know how to get ahold of me, and I will most likely be posting on myspace now....so it's been fun, but it's time to move on and grow up....not write my shit on here so everyone can read it get all mad and write me mean comments!!