vent..............ing
well I am overly frustrated with everything and nothing all at the same time.
I am tired of silly girls with petty boy problems. I am not saying I don't have petty problems ever, or that I never was "that girl" but to be quite frank it annoys the crap outta me now. In hindsight all I can say is a guy that plays you isn't worth your breath let alone your tears. I just wish some girls understood this.
I am sick of girls who have to lie and thinkg they are saving thier ass, but it's too bad I know the truth and the lieing only agatates me and makes me realize I can't trust them. Cause if they'll lie about something so small, then what would stop them from a big lie?
I feel like an asshole for thinking that I had a rough first semester when I hear how other peoples have been. I felt so selfish as I sit there and hear people tell me truely life shattering events it makes me realize how silly my problems were.
I am tired of not feeling good enough about my body, when I swore in June that if I got to where I am at now I would truely be happy with the way I looked, and now I am here and a 5 pound gain sends me tumbling outta control and I feel as if I need to lose 10 to counter balance that.
I am tired of a certain Director of housing thinking it's her job to call my dad and tell him all the Lake State rumors and hearsay about me, which half of it is not true......But he believes anyway. This small school small town bullshit can really suck....can we say TRANSFER???
Mostly I am tired to hell of messing up.......not living up to the person I wanna be. I am tired of hospital visits and mips, I am tired of only doing everything half way except for the "fun".
I want exam week to be over, so I can sleep again, and not study for a million and a half hours. I want to start to feel excited about home, and Florida......but for some reason I can't. I am scared for home because I know taht it will be one big lecture, from everyone, because no one truely wants to believe that I have it under control or hear the story about what happened and why it was such bullshit.
I also have realized, spending so much time in the library could end up benificial. If I would have studied like this all semester I could do A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!!!!!!!!!!! So for next semester that is where you will find me. Because I have too much bad Karma with drinking, so the library will most likely be my new friday night hot spot.
Sorry for all the venting, it was either the computer hearing it or Michelle...................
I am tired of silly girls with petty boy problems. I am not saying I don't have petty problems ever, or that I never was "that girl" but to be quite frank it annoys the crap outta me now. In hindsight all I can say is a guy that plays you isn't worth your breath let alone your tears. I just wish some girls understood this.
I am sick of girls who have to lie and thinkg they are saving thier ass, but it's too bad I know the truth and the lieing only agatates me and makes me realize I can't trust them. Cause if they'll lie about something so small, then what would stop them from a big lie?
I feel like an asshole for thinking that I had a rough first semester when I hear how other peoples have been. I felt so selfish as I sit there and hear people tell me truely life shattering events it makes me realize how silly my problems were.
I am tired of not feeling good enough about my body, when I swore in June that if I got to where I am at now I would truely be happy with the way I looked, and now I am here and a 5 pound gain sends me tumbling outta control and I feel as if I need to lose 10 to counter balance that.
I am tired of a certain Director of housing thinking it's her job to call my dad and tell him all the Lake State rumors and hearsay about me, which half of it is not true......But he believes anyway. This small school small town bullshit can really suck....can we say TRANSFER???
Mostly I am tired to hell of messing up.......not living up to the person I wanna be. I am tired of hospital visits and mips, I am tired of only doing everything half way except for the "fun".
I want exam week to be over, so I can sleep again, and not study for a million and a half hours. I want to start to feel excited about home, and Florida......but for some reason I can't. I am scared for home because I know taht it will be one big lecture, from everyone, because no one truely wants to believe that I have it under control or hear the story about what happened and why it was such bullshit.
I also have realized, spending so much time in the library could end up benificial. If I would have studied like this all semester I could do A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!!!!!!!!!!! So for next semester that is where you will find me. Because I have too much bad Karma with drinking, so the library will most likely be my new friday night hot spot.
Sorry for all the venting, it was either the computer hearing it or Michelle...................