confusion
Ugh. I have never been so upset and frustrated in my entire life. I can't sleep, I can't eat and I can't focus. It's horrible and I'm useless because of it. This is so frustrating because I really care for him, and I know that he just broke up with me because he was frustrated and angry but I can't stand not talking to him. And the whole thing brings up entirely other issues like the fact that he acts like my dad sometimes and is really controlling when he gets angry. I mean, it's not good because we all have our faults. So I'm going to have to swallow something with anyone and it's just aggravating because other than these stupid things, he's exactly what I'm looking for.
I'm just really hurt that he would just break up with me over one stupid night. I mean, I didn't even do anything that bad. I just got drunk and didn't come home until four hours later than I had told him I would. So basically he's just grounding me right now? I'm really trying hard to see things from his perspective, but I'm having a hard time. Maybe part of that is because he won't talk to me.
Earlier Sunday, he was talking about how happy he was and how he couldn't see his life without me...etc etc. And then I make one mistake and BOOM. It's not like I ever drink. I mean, I'm not trying to justify how I acted or anything or the fact that I didn't call him. I just think that's harsh.
And he started talking about how he's "sick of having to act like the parent" and I don't really understand where he's coming from because um, I sure as hell have never told him he should. He started yelling at me about my car being a mess and how his used to be like that when he didn't care about himself and blah blah. And I don't know what my car has to do with any of this?? Is that just anger talking?
If he can get over this little spat, can I?
For a while, I really thought I'd found what I was looking for--at least for the time being and now...??
Sorry for complaining, I'm just so lost.
I'm just really hurt that he would just break up with me over one stupid night. I mean, I didn't even do anything that bad. I just got drunk and didn't come home until four hours later than I had told him I would. So basically he's just grounding me right now? I'm really trying hard to see things from his perspective, but I'm having a hard time. Maybe part of that is because he won't talk to me.
Earlier Sunday, he was talking about how happy he was and how he couldn't see his life without me...etc etc. And then I make one mistake and BOOM. It's not like I ever drink. I mean, I'm not trying to justify how I acted or anything or the fact that I didn't call him. I just think that's harsh.
And he started talking about how he's "sick of having to act like the parent" and I don't really understand where he's coming from because um, I sure as hell have never told him he should. He started yelling at me about my car being a mess and how his used to be like that when he didn't care about himself and blah blah. And I don't know what my car has to do with any of this?? Is that just anger talking?
If he can get over this little spat, can I?
For a while, I really thought I'd found what I was looking for--at least for the time being and now...??
Sorry for complaining, I'm just so lost.