guys everywhere
summer is here. but i'm not feeling it.
i saw my "best" guyfriend today. and it was weird. or i probably was the one who made it awkward. but i couldn't help it. i hated him for being so him. it's disgusting. I'M disgusting. BUT thinking back on it, i'm glad he came and sat next to me. otherwise, i would have probably hated him forever. i was a bitch, but i'm glad he was being nice. and i love him for it. because, that just means, our friendship is still there. i think i'm complicated. i tried not talking to him as much as i could. i hate it when i know people are trying to make the situation less awkward by attempting to build a conversation using small talk.. when in all reality, it becomes even more awkward, because I KNOW what they're trying to do. but heck, that's what he did. and yet, i still love him for it. because he tried. gad, i'm complicated. shoot me.