"That would be good both going and coming back..."
"It's when I'm weary of considerations,
And life is too much like a pathless wood
Where your face burns and tickles with the cobwebs
Broken across it, and one eye is weeping
From a twig's having lashed across it open.
I'd like to get away from earth awhile
And then come back to it and begin over.
May no fate willfully misunderstand me
And half grant what I wish and snatch me away
Not to return. Earth's the right place for love:
I don't know where it's likely to go better." -Ga, this is one of my top 5 favorite poems by one of my top 3 favorite poets. *sighhh*
I went to Austin this weekend. I've discovered that it makes me feel really relaxed, which will be a new experience for me. lol I think it's funny how I kept talking about how much I hated the pass and wanted to leave, but now that its getting down to the wire, I'm having mixed emotions. I hated orientation. I'm excited about going to UT, but I just don't like the process of getting there. I've cried just about every night. I know that's weird considering I was the first to say how much I wanted out, but I can't even describe how much staying here at home for a year has changed my perspective on things. I don't even want to imagine how hard its gonna be to leave my mom. We've had such a love/hate relationship, but she's been my best friend no matter what. Nothing in the world can prepare me for what thats gonna feel like. *sighh* On the upside, now is when I get to be selfish and experience all the things I've been talking about for so long. Next summer, I'll be a foreign exchange student in France. 6 years ago, we had a guy from France stay with us for a year, his name was Geome, and if all goes as planned, he will be my host family. =) Next fall I'll be applying to Pharmacy school. That is just crazy to think that I'm half way done. Life flies by!!! It's such a bittersweet feeling to be leaving, because I know that once I'm gone, I'll never be back. As much as I'd like to, thats just not me. Its kinda like, once I'm gone, thats it. I guess thats why I'm taking it so hard. I've been an emotional wreck. I know I sound like an idiot, but I think Joe and Jackie are probably the only ones that can relate. I'm so grateful that I'll have them with me...that'll be my support system without a doubt. And I love that Jackie and I push eachother to do new things, so I can only imagine what we'll get ourselves into. Not to mention the lovely Dani bro! Its gonna be nice to finally be able to have her there with me whenever I need her and vice versa. But until then, I guess I better figure out what to do with the rest of my summer. As of Friday I am unemployed! yipes. (No I didn't get fired you little nut heads. Its called summer school.) Anyhoot, if you read up until now, I'm really really sorry. lol Bye guys. Don't die.
And life is too much like a pathless wood
Where your face burns and tickles with the cobwebs
Broken across it, and one eye is weeping
From a twig's having lashed across it open.
I'd like to get away from earth awhile
And then come back to it and begin over.
May no fate willfully misunderstand me
And half grant what I wish and snatch me away
Not to return. Earth's the right place for love:
I don't know where it's likely to go better." -Ga, this is one of my top 5 favorite poems by one of my top 3 favorite poets. *sighhh*
I went to Austin this weekend. I've discovered that it makes me feel really relaxed, which will be a new experience for me. lol I think it's funny how I kept talking about how much I hated the pass and wanted to leave, but now that its getting down to the wire, I'm having mixed emotions. I hated orientation. I'm excited about going to UT, but I just don't like the process of getting there. I've cried just about every night. I know that's weird considering I was the first to say how much I wanted out, but I can't even describe how much staying here at home for a year has changed my perspective on things. I don't even want to imagine how hard its gonna be to leave my mom. We've had such a love/hate relationship, but she's been my best friend no matter what. Nothing in the world can prepare me for what thats gonna feel like. *sighh* On the upside, now is when I get to be selfish and experience all the things I've been talking about for so long. Next summer, I'll be a foreign exchange student in France. 6 years ago, we had a guy from France stay with us for a year, his name was Geome, and if all goes as planned, he will be my host family. =) Next fall I'll be applying to Pharmacy school. That is just crazy to think that I'm half way done. Life flies by!!! It's such a bittersweet feeling to be leaving, because I know that once I'm gone, I'll never be back. As much as I'd like to, thats just not me. Its kinda like, once I'm gone, thats it. I guess thats why I'm taking it so hard. I've been an emotional wreck. I know I sound like an idiot, but I think Joe and Jackie are probably the only ones that can relate. I'm so grateful that I'll have them with me...that'll be my support system without a doubt. And I love that Jackie and I push eachother to do new things, so I can only imagine what we'll get ourselves into. Not to mention the lovely Dani bro! Its gonna be nice to finally be able to have her there with me whenever I need her and vice versa. But until then, I guess I better figure out what to do with the rest of my summer. As of Friday I am unemployed! yipes. (No I didn't get fired you little nut heads. Its called summer school.) Anyhoot, if you read up until now, I'm really really sorry. lol Bye guys. Don't die.