it's been awhile...
i'm getting bad about keeping up a journal...
someone spank me!
but really, i need to get it together!! like...lets see... it is febuary the 17th. great. hmm.. what the hell have i been doing? i've been working, but tomorrow will be my last day. HorrAy! ummm...i've been going to school, but i didn't go today cause i have/had a sore throat and a bad headache today. and lately i've been either talking to jonathan, thinking about jonathan, or spending time with jonathan. And we are now officially girlfriend/boyfriend! what can i say, i'm crazy about him, but not as much as he is about me. lol hmmm what have we done... we've been out to eat a couple times, i went to breakfast with him, his dad and uncle one sunday, and he took me out to O'charlies one night. andddd....last weekend we went and saw....when a stranger calls and we went to steak and shake...thennn for valentines day..this past tuesday he did the most sweetest thing! lets see, we was talking monday night and i was all wondering if we was going to see each other for v-day. and he was all like, tomorrow is v-day? i forgot about that. sooo yeah.. i was like ok. but yeah he told me it would be a great day, and i was like whatever.. lol so i went to sleep and then like at 5:30 my mom comes in my room and was like go look outside! she was all excited and i was all grumpy cause i didn't want to get up, but i did anyway and i opened the front door and my jaw musta dropped, and i was like thinking, omg and how sweet, and this boy must be crazy! all at the same time. but yeah he drove out to my house with his dad at like 3 in the morning and he set a big giant stuffed puppy dog, a dozen roses, big box of chocolates, and a ballon, and some purfume out on my moms car! how great is that??? :-) then..i went to school and after that he came and picked me up and we went out to eat at Ruby tuesdays. hmmm... then wensday i had work. and thursday, i started getting a sore throat. anddd jonathan left me a letter under my chair in my 3rd block class, and he asked me to go to Bryant's prom! lol sooo...yeahhhh! how cool is that? hmmm... today i haven't done a thing. it is like almost 11, and i'm still in my pj's from this morning. my mom made me call in to work, which didn't bother me, but i wish i went cause i would probably feel better if i just got out of the house. umm...sonny is gone this weekend for a 4-h thing. last night i went to eat with daddy and some lady recognized my dad as "sonny's father" so they started talking about him and then my 5th grade teacher mrs. gibson saw us and asked how SOnnY was doing. then i realized i don't have a life. lol i'm not involed in like anything. i mean i am, just not as much as sonny. i just don't have the attitude or the determination. and yeah i know it. i wish i did, but i just don't. mabey i need to change that. hmmm... anyway. yes, lately i've been feeling great and everything but i still feel that incomplete kinda feeling, i don't know how to fix it or make it better or if it is even worth the trouble (i think it is) but it just depresses me so much just thinking about it. i don't know if this is even bothering her like it is me, and i really don't think it is, because if it was, something would have changes by now. mabey i'm looking at the picture all wrong. and when i think something is settled to move on, i feel like i've just took 2 steps back. and if you haven't figured out who i'm talking about it is alex. mabey we just need to go our separate ways, i mean i hate to even think about that, but i right now i think that is what it is going to come to. sucks right? losing a best friend, but i know exactly where she is. lol (that wasn't funny) but really, i hate it. and i could write forever whats wrong and what i don't like and how i wished it would somehow be ok. but that would be a lot of writing and i should just probably, who knows . i'm not writing about that anymore tho. ANYWAY>>> i hope this is a great weekend. i need to go to bed! okey dokie! GOODNIGHT!