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So my vacation was pretty fun. I miss my family.
It always makes me sad to come back to Omaha. I regret not being part of my sisters' lives. feel bad for never seeing my grandparents. I regret not getting to see the kids grow up. Ramona has so much personality, and she looks just like her mom. Elizabeth is so confident in everything she does, which is funny to watch this little girl with so much confidence. Baby Jeremiah laughs and smiles so much, he constantly put me in a good mood. That being said, I don't know if I ever will have kids. Or if I do, someday very far away from now, I don't know if I will have more than one. I think it's safe to say that I'm a pretty selfish person. And it may not be happy but it's where I'm at. And to spend so much time with strollers, and crying, and me losing patience, it's probably best I found out now instead of in two years with an infant in my hands, and my husband in some random country on the other side of the world. Good to realize these things now, but kind of hard. I always pictured myself getting married young and having a bunch of kids. Now all I do is countdown until Ben is out of the military (roughly 950 days) so we can be near family and good friends.
Seeing my grandparents was the best. Next September, my grandpa will be 90 years old. I get so nervous every time I say goodbye to them, because I don't want it to be the last time I see them. I've had a hard time saying goodbye to people after my grandma died last year.
Well, now I've been home for almost a week. I got fired when I was on vacation, so I watch a lot of animal planet, discovery health, and i've gotten back into running in my spare time. But I'm poor, and that sucks.
Oh, and I started a blogspot. Mainly about my adventures with Jessica and Amelia, and these fucking ridiculous Omaha nights.
It always makes me sad to come back to Omaha. I regret not being part of my sisters' lives. feel bad for never seeing my grandparents. I regret not getting to see the kids grow up. Ramona has so much personality, and she looks just like her mom. Elizabeth is so confident in everything she does, which is funny to watch this little girl with so much confidence. Baby Jeremiah laughs and smiles so much, he constantly put me in a good mood. That being said, I don't know if I ever will have kids. Or if I do, someday very far away from now, I don't know if I will have more than one. I think it's safe to say that I'm a pretty selfish person. And it may not be happy but it's where I'm at. And to spend so much time with strollers, and crying, and me losing patience, it's probably best I found out now instead of in two years with an infant in my hands, and my husband in some random country on the other side of the world. Good to realize these things now, but kind of hard. I always pictured myself getting married young and having a bunch of kids. Now all I do is countdown until Ben is out of the military (roughly 950 days) so we can be near family and good friends.
Seeing my grandparents was the best. Next September, my grandpa will be 90 years old. I get so nervous every time I say goodbye to them, because I don't want it to be the last time I see them. I've had a hard time saying goodbye to people after my grandma died last year.
Well, now I've been home for almost a week. I got fired when I was on vacation, so I watch a lot of animal planet, discovery health, and i've gotten back into running in my spare time. But I'm poor, and that sucks.
Oh, and I started a blogspot. Mainly about my adventures with Jessica and Amelia, and these fucking ridiculous Omaha nights.