sunday
i went to church for the firs time in like 2 months, becuase of volleyball tournaments and spring break i havent been in a while. i saw ryan merrit and billy kochotovitc. old flings. see them and talking remebering old times when i hung out with them and like how we had fun and just chillin. didnt make feel the way i thought. i usually at that point think.. why do i have a boyfreind i am not made to be commited. But that wasnt what happened. instead of feeling that way and hidding the fact i had a boyfreind, i blatenly told them, and told them how happy i was it was werid i never usually do that also, i just kept on thinking about joel, it was differnt it makes me think i really am falling for him.. maybe even more than i know. it makes me thinkg of that song where it says you know you got it bad when your out with another guy and all you can think about is another one, well it was kinda like that, despite the fact it ws just at church. i dunno i really do like joel alot..