basic meaning: the self; your self image
There is a storm coming.
"Comrades, an air-raid warning has been sounded in the city. Attention, comrades, an air-raid warning has been sounded-"
There is a storm coming and yes, yes, all right, she can hear the sirens and she's trying to shut the windows.
Only, Han walks behind her and opens them again. And she can't argue with him, because she's trying to explain ten things at once to everyone else (no one's there) and she has to lean out to pull the shutters in and Cal is so very, very much not helping, either.
"Comrades, an air-raid warning has been sounded in the city."
(Owen would get it, she thinks, but he's taking care of himself)
"Attention, comrades."
Then the door opens.
And she turns.
And Antosha runs out.
"Comrades, an air-raid warning has been sounded in the city. Attention, comrades, an air-raid warning has been sounded in the city"
Only she can't follow, because Billy is standing there, blocking the door.
She's pleading, begging
"Comrades, an air-raid warning has been sounded in the city."
please he's my brother Billy letmego please
you can't. he has to go outside. if you stop him, you won't exist anymore
HE'S MY BROTHER
until she's kicks and pushes passed him.
Only, there isn't a hallway.
It's black, empty, black and empty as space and her wings are gone. She fell before, fell to Earth, and when birds fall to Earth they lose they wings and can't get back up again.
She falls
and falls
and hits the ground.
Fira pushes herself up, ignoring the blood running down her arms, and raises her head.
"Comrades, an air-raid warning has been sounded in the city."
There.
"Comrades, an air-raid warning has been sounded in the city."
There is Antosha, just ahead, and she opens her mouth to call him back because
"Comrades, an air-raid warning has been sounded in the city. Attention, comrades-"
the sky is dark not with clouds
(now she can hear the anti-aircraft batteries)
but German planes that are bringing bombs instead of rain
and the city is already on fire.
And
ANTOSHA
she can't scream
and she wakes up still choking over her brother's name. She fumbles for the light, and has to squint as it hurts her eyes. It never happened like it, never; he'd died later, in the camp. But even though she reads until dawn, reads about the first base on the moon to calm her down, every time she shuts her eyes, she sees that little figure running towards the fire.
"Comrades, an air-raid warning has been sounded in the city. Attention, comrades, an air-raid warning has been sounded-"
There is a storm coming and yes, yes, all right, she can hear the sirens and she's trying to shut the windows.
Only, Han walks behind her and opens them again. And she can't argue with him, because she's trying to explain ten things at once to everyone else (no one's there) and she has to lean out to pull the shutters in and Cal is so very, very much not helping, either.
"Comrades, an air-raid warning has been sounded in the city."
(Owen would get it, she thinks, but he's taking care of himself)
"Attention, comrades."
Then the door opens.
And she turns.
And Antosha runs out.
"Comrades, an air-raid warning has been sounded in the city. Attention, comrades, an air-raid warning has been sounded in the city"
Only she can't follow, because Billy is standing there, blocking the door.
She's pleading, begging
"Comrades, an air-raid warning has been sounded in the city."
please he's my brother Billy letmego please
you can't. he has to go outside. if you stop him, you won't exist anymore
HE'S MY BROTHER
until she's kicks and pushes passed him.
Only, there isn't a hallway.
It's black, empty, black and empty as space and her wings are gone. She fell before, fell to Earth, and when birds fall to Earth they lose they wings and can't get back up again.
She falls
and falls
and hits the ground.
Fira pushes herself up, ignoring the blood running down her arms, and raises her head.
"Comrades, an air-raid warning has been sounded in the city."
There.
"Comrades, an air-raid warning has been sounded in the city."
There is Antosha, just ahead, and she opens her mouth to call him back because
"Comrades, an air-raid warning has been sounded in the city. Attention, comrades-"
the sky is dark not with clouds
(now she can hear the anti-aircraft batteries)
but German planes that are bringing bombs instead of rain
and the city is already on fire.
And
ANTOSHA
she can't scream
and she wakes up still choking over her brother's name. She fumbles for the light, and has to squint as it hurts her eyes. It never happened like it, never; he'd died later, in the camp. But even though she reads until dawn, reads about the first base on the moon to calm her down, every time she shuts her eyes, she sees that little figure running towards the fire.