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Well now, that makes me sad, i wonder...if since it was drunk it didnt mean anything? I bet it does though, it really does make me sad though, like horribly, kinda sick too i suppose.
I miss mere, i wish she would come home
I wish i knew how to sort everything out in my head
i wish i oculd get my shit together.
I wish i knew alot of things
I wish i wasnt drifting from people
I wish tassia could be my friend
I want a bubble bath
I want to spoon with jordan
I wonder why im so weird about her
Why does it matter so much
that were so "different"?
I mean, it doesnt really.
Because i always deny it when people tell me i like her
But i do like her
Alot.
And i keep saying im not her type
maybe its the other way around
im not her type just as much as shes not mine
i hate that people are so overanalytical
and oversensetive
NOTHING HAS A HAPPY ENDING
DONT LIE TO ME
I HATE YOU SO MUCH
I HATE THAT IM SO EASY TO DROP
I HATE THAT I MADE THE SAME MISTAKE IN THE BEGINNING
I HATE THAT I DROPPED EVERYTHING THAT MEANT SOMETIHNG TO ME
FOR SOMETHING THAT WAS BOUND TO END BAD ANYWAYS
I HATE THAT I KNEW IT FROM THE BEGINNING
I Want ot change but i dont even know where to begin
i want to be someone better
Better in general
I like who i am and all, i just dont like my decisions sometimes
And i find that its really hard for me to make the right ones
I hate that i dont want to care anymore
And i dont want anyone to care about me
I feel bad that i couldnt go to jordans game
I wanted to really badly
I hope she doesnt think its because i didnt want to
Truth is my mom decided to hate me.
I hate that i dont know how to go about things anymore
With people...
mostly with people that i like.
I hate that boys are so...homophobe, dave never used to be lke that when you called him gay, now he freaks out, like he has masculinity to protect, when he doesnt, hes the most feminine kid ever, his emotions? his words? his mind set? I love how everyone (with the exception of a couple people...) agrees with me on that subject. haha its fucking hilarious. Oh well, i think were both very comfortable with not liking each other, this is all a weird situation, like we dont like each other, but we still talk sometimes? And we still hug? lol Its fucked up. I cant stay mad at hte kid, its impossible, ijust hold it all inside.
Today was odd, I was really quiet and upste all day, depressed more so, i didnt talk much. And i could tell that jordan noticed, she didnt mention anything though. I dont exactly konwwhat was wrong with me, i think it got worse when i went upstairs with lela and talked. Blah Blah Blah, itsucks i didnt get to go to the game, i would ahve seen two of the most wonderful people. But NO, my mom HATES ME. lol. Lelas the shit, and you konw what? youre right, i do like jordan, so fuck off.
I hate valentines day, im always alone, just like on the 4th of july, im always alone watching the fireworks. It makes me sad. My relationships always end like....a week before valentines day. I wonder how cassandra is, i haven talked to her in forever, maybe ill cal her tonite to chcek up on her or something, i miss her, whyd we stop talking?
I regret going to that party.
Im hungry
Ill finish this stupid ass entry later.
Chill out yall.
X peace.
I miss mere, i wish she would come home
I wish i knew how to sort everything out in my head
i wish i oculd get my shit together.
I wish i knew alot of things
I wish i wasnt drifting from people
I wish tassia could be my friend
I want a bubble bath
I want to spoon with jordan
I wonder why im so weird about her
Why does it matter so much
that were so "different"?
I mean, it doesnt really.
Because i always deny it when people tell me i like her
But i do like her
Alot.
And i keep saying im not her type
maybe its the other way around
im not her type just as much as shes not mine
i hate that people are so overanalytical
and oversensetive
NOTHING HAS A HAPPY ENDING
DONT LIE TO ME
I HATE YOU SO MUCH
I HATE THAT IM SO EASY TO DROP
I HATE THAT I MADE THE SAME MISTAKE IN THE BEGINNING
I HATE THAT I DROPPED EVERYTHING THAT MEANT SOMETIHNG TO ME
FOR SOMETHING THAT WAS BOUND TO END BAD ANYWAYS
I HATE THAT I KNEW IT FROM THE BEGINNING
I Want ot change but i dont even know where to begin
i want to be someone better
Better in general
I like who i am and all, i just dont like my decisions sometimes
And i find that its really hard for me to make the right ones
I hate that i dont want to care anymore
And i dont want anyone to care about me
I feel bad that i couldnt go to jordans game
I wanted to really badly
I hope she doesnt think its because i didnt want to
Truth is my mom decided to hate me.
I hate that i dont know how to go about things anymore
With people...
mostly with people that i like.
I hate that boys are so...homophobe, dave never used to be lke that when you called him gay, now he freaks out, like he has masculinity to protect, when he doesnt, hes the most feminine kid ever, his emotions? his words? his mind set? I love how everyone (with the exception of a couple people...) agrees with me on that subject. haha its fucking hilarious. Oh well, i think were both very comfortable with not liking each other, this is all a weird situation, like we dont like each other, but we still talk sometimes? And we still hug? lol Its fucked up. I cant stay mad at hte kid, its impossible, ijust hold it all inside.
Today was odd, I was really quiet and upste all day, depressed more so, i didnt talk much. And i could tell that jordan noticed, she didnt mention anything though. I dont exactly konwwhat was wrong with me, i think it got worse when i went upstairs with lela and talked. Blah Blah Blah, itsucks i didnt get to go to the game, i would ahve seen two of the most wonderful people. But NO, my mom HATES ME. lol. Lelas the shit, and you konw what? youre right, i do like jordan, so fuck off.
I hate valentines day, im always alone, just like on the 4th of july, im always alone watching the fireworks. It makes me sad. My relationships always end like....a week before valentines day. I wonder how cassandra is, i haven talked to her in forever, maybe ill cal her tonite to chcek up on her or something, i miss her, whyd we stop talking?
I regret going to that party.
Im hungry
Ill finish this stupid ass entry later.
Chill out yall.
X peace.