dont have one its just rambling..
hmm...Quit an interesting day..Well ya..okay anyways i haven't updated in a good while so i am.I don't remember alot of stuff that's happened but I'll write what comes to my mind at the moment.I went to a new years eve party.It was fun.It mainly consisted of a binch of drunk people mainly guys which was amusing to watch.I got tipsey I'm not too special.
Well on to Bethany and me!We fight alot.We don't get along really at all anymore.Her friends are just too important now.She has problems with me probably cause I'm a prep so naturally people think I'm a stuck up bitch,which I'm not!If you know you'll know that I'm really fun*&*crazy:)..Anyways,she's labeled "punk or goth"naturally people would think she's dark and scary and hates the world.Which of course if you know Bethany than you'll know she's not a dark scary person.I'm not sure if she hates the world though.
Now on to Tom and me.Before that though I would like to point out that red and black are sexy together.Anways, with him it's the same thing as Beth.Tom is labeled what Beth is and I'm like the oddball.Tom picks on me and calls me a slut dyke and everything and hits me and crap and i have to take it because I have no ther choice, and he can overpower me easily.He doesn't understand what happened to me once before when i was twelve.Anyways,I won't talk about that becaus eit brings up emotions I do not wish to feel again.Twelve was a bed age for me is all I can say.You know what just dawned on me?It might be all my fault that I fight with everyone.I just might be an egotisocal little bitch,but it's okay I'll live for a few more days.
Right now I feel as if I have run out of emotion.I feel as my happy battery died today while I was being too happy.Damn energizer batteries!I feel like I can no longer go any further because I have screwed up so bad in the past when I should've said NO to everything.Those stupid red ribbons aren't enough to tell us how stupid we are going to be.I've done more than most people in older ages I will say because times have changed so everyones always being bad nowadays.No i didn't do drugs.I need to change though.Most oof this life I've lived has been a lie and I need to change and i understand that it's just I dont know it's hard.I need to get back into church and everything.I need to start realizing that I need to get my act together.