ya make me wanna la la! wtf does that even mean? does anyone know?
i'm bouncin off the freakin walls and i have my final math exam tomorrow morning.. err this morning! in approximately 7 hrs. i think it's gonna be okay tho. so i go to work today at 5 thinking i'm doin my normal job as the resident director's assistant, but no. i am just sitting in the r.a. office waiting for people to come check out of the dorms for when they go home. so i sat on the computer and played snood and talked online! haha awesomeness.. i get paid for that! after that i came back up here and hung out, looked over math and chatted w.the girls. tomorrow we do our christmas yankee swap thing! i can't wait! we're gonna get dressed up and look all cute and take pics! it feels good to be done pretty much. but it feels like i've been anti-social.. like i see all the usual girls and the guys down the hall. but like i haven't hung out with people like usual. i talked to erika from work today. i miss herrr! we're gonna go clubbin and stuff once i get back which should be fun! she caught me up on the s&s gossip! i talked to melissa the other day too and i miss her alsooo! goin back to work should be somewhat fun.. only if i work with the people i like anyway. it doesn't feel much like christmas time when ur at school.. i think i need to go home to get into it. a lot has to do with what was goin on this time last year. i miss my grampa more than anything in the world right now. my memere too. i will never forget those days for as long as i live. but for some reason i can accept her death more than his. she lived a long time.. and we knew it was coming for quite a while. but my grampa left at just the wrong time.. he had so much more to do and it was so abrupt. i know it hurts my dad soo much around this time of year too. last year was a rough year in general. i wasn't myself from like august-may.. but it's ok now. this summer was the best and this year is awesome so far. anyways.. that was god damn depressing of me to say all that! i am sorry! yesterday i watched 'a walk to remember' like 5 times when i was doin my project. that movie is sooo sad and sooo good! i cried. every time. so yeah tonite there was a free "moonlight breakfast" in the beatty cafe. it was pretty good and i was sooo hyper. after we came back i made a study sheet for math and watched football. i was on the phone for a while too. then the guys were playin "hallway golfey" which consists of hockey sticks, a foam ball, and a plastic cup duct taped to the floor. i was the ball catcher thingy.. they had bad aim for hockey players. and then i came in here and now i'm talkin to krystal attempting to make her feel better! ily krys! boys suck! well.. some of them