It's the sad songs that make me happy

[aim_ers]

 I cleaned everything out of my closet today
and moved it to my new house
I found my pills in my closet today
and took the right amount
a world of focus
I saw me in the future today 
a child-like vision
but one completely possible
I saw me old and not alone
I was smiling in a white-walled room
with an ugly lamp but it didn't matter
I layed on a cloud today
I was real here
while I listened to my old indie crap
called "depressing melodramatic emo shit" by some
she listens to it with me
we both smiled.
The care flows out
I cried because I've missed out
and I'm falling into the trap
the one that will save me

"I never asked to be nobody's nothing" ~Owen
"can't miss what we never had" ~me.