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WOW! my first LJ entry. I'm feeling much much better than I have the last couple of days. I guess that I had to give my brain time to recover over a personal matter. But now i'm back on track and feeling way better than I have. I still have a lot of questions that dont make sense concerning that situation but now i realize that my qoute really does make a lot of sense.
"Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will find them gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer. "
At first I didnt follow my own advice but now I understand. I can sometimes be so impatient. But anyway I helped 2 people get jobs where I work so im happy for them and myself. I figured out what classes I'll be taking when I return to school via online courses. I cant wait to find out what thats like. I made up with a couple of people i were upset with and people that were upset with me. So now i just have to stay on the plan that I layed out for myself and I'll be ok mentally, physically, and finacially.
I have so much thoughts on my mind during the course of a day. Sometimes I give myself a headache just from thinking too much. But its like I really cant help it. I still find each day too short for all that thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books want to read, and all the friends I want to see. I dont remeber the last time I've had a good 8 hrs. of sleep. I think that could help a lot. You see, the big problem with my growing up is not limited by time, culture or geography. I share the same wonder and confusion as everyone else: Who am I? Why am I here? Does it matter? Ultimately I hope we all answer (.....):. Yes, it does. We do matter. And that is both a challenge and a joy. Everyone in my opinion is an explorer. So, how could you live your life looking at a door and not open it? This shows that you have a lot of character. Character is doing the right thing when nobody’s looking. There are too many people who think that the only thing that’s right is to get by, and the only thing that’s wrong is to get caught.
I guess to sum everything im trying to say, you have to look at things like this-
How is one to live a moral and compassionate existence when one finds darkness not only in one’s culture but within oneself? If there is a stage at which an individual life becomes truly adult, it must be when one grasps the irony in its unfolding and accepts responsibility for a life lived in the midst of such paradox. There are simply no answers to some of the great pressing questions. You continue to live them out, making your life a worthy expression of leaning into the light.
Analyze that!
"Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will find them gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer. "
At first I didnt follow my own advice but now I understand. I can sometimes be so impatient. But anyway I helped 2 people get jobs where I work so im happy for them and myself. I figured out what classes I'll be taking when I return to school via online courses. I cant wait to find out what thats like. I made up with a couple of people i were upset with and people that were upset with me. So now i just have to stay on the plan that I layed out for myself and I'll be ok mentally, physically, and finacially.
I have so much thoughts on my mind during the course of a day. Sometimes I give myself a headache just from thinking too much. But its like I really cant help it. I still find each day too short for all that thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books want to read, and all the friends I want to see. I dont remeber the last time I've had a good 8 hrs. of sleep. I think that could help a lot. You see, the big problem with my growing up is not limited by time, culture or geography. I share the same wonder and confusion as everyone else: Who am I? Why am I here? Does it matter? Ultimately I hope we all answer (.....):. Yes, it does. We do matter. And that is both a challenge and a joy. Everyone in my opinion is an explorer. So, how could you live your life looking at a door and not open it? This shows that you have a lot of character. Character is doing the right thing when nobody’s looking. There are too many people who think that the only thing that’s right is to get by, and the only thing that’s wrong is to get caught.
I guess to sum everything im trying to say, you have to look at things like this-
How is one to live a moral and compassionate existence when one finds darkness not only in one’s culture but within oneself? If there is a stage at which an individual life becomes truly adult, it must be when one grasps the irony in its unfolding and accepts responsibility for a life lived in the midst of such paradox. There are simply no answers to some of the great pressing questions. You continue to live them out, making your life a worthy expression of leaning into the light.
Analyze that!