I finally think im OK..............
After way to much thinking, sleep deprivation, and starving myself(unintentionally) I finally think that I realized what i needed to in order to move on in life. A lot more people than i thought really do care about me and we're there for me emotionally when i needed it most(you know who you are), and i thank each and every last one of you for all the advice and attention you have given me and i'll never forget it. I know I'm a really nice kind hearted person even when i shouldn't be and i think others see that in me as well. At the same time I think I'm a bit selfish for feeling like shit with all the shit going on in the world and I'm just thinking about how fucked up it was for me to think of my small problems compared to the war and shit the U.S. is going through right now. But anyway thanks to everyone that has helped me when my heart felt like shit and just know that i'll be OK and everything will work out how its supposed to in the end.