End roll.
It's been a while, yes.
A lot of shit has happened ever since
But I am home at last, after almost a whole year.
I don't even remember where I left off....
But I am heading back to Japan in two days. My grandfather has passed away so I'm going to go to his funeral. I will be bawling my eyes out once again. I should be back on Friday, then packing up to go to San Diego!! busy busy busy
It actually wasn't too hard to say good-bye to everyone. I knew I was going to see them again. Maybe not soon, but I will head back to Sendai to go dance again. And drink. and just be a total goofball hahaha.
I'm really all over the place. My thoughts are just bouncing around in my brain.
I guess this is what I wanted to spit out.
Here it goes...
I am so confused. Unsure. Uncertain.
Charlie and I are still together, but I don't know if I want to keep this going. I've been talking to a cute Japanese-white halffie from UCR, and he's been contacting me ever since we met. And he lives a lot closer, and is better eye-candy. Charlie cares for me, Charlie, on the other hand... I know he really likes me, cares for me, treats me differently compared to everyone else. So I guess i'm in a pickle. Should I hang on to him? ugh I don't even know.
He's like idk why you'd date me you're so out of my league, blah blah blah... And honestly, I feel flattered. I can do better, but maybe the better won't be my ideal. He might not be as appreciative, He might just be a plain douchebag. Idk... i keep thinking about the future and all, and I really don't see a future w him. I've been ignoring texts and stuff from everyone (b/c I just got back and also because of the gramapa thing, but mostly because I'm a lazyass lol) but I don't know why I'm in this relationship where we don't know when I can see him again. sigh. If I start getting cozy with someone once school starts, I think I'll break it to him... That'll be fun. man. Life is hard. lol
hokaayyy I'm not really helping myself by staying up late... saying it's because of the jet lag hahaha. mmkays
oh and Shingeki no Kyojin? So. freaking. good. ♡
mikasa♡♡
A lot of shit has happened ever since
But I am home at last, after almost a whole year.
I don't even remember where I left off....
But I am heading back to Japan in two days. My grandfather has passed away so I'm going to go to his funeral. I will be bawling my eyes out once again. I should be back on Friday, then packing up to go to San Diego!! busy busy busy
It actually wasn't too hard to say good-bye to everyone. I knew I was going to see them again. Maybe not soon, but I will head back to Sendai to go dance again. And drink. and just be a total goofball hahaha.
I'm really all over the place. My thoughts are just bouncing around in my brain.
I guess this is what I wanted to spit out.
Here it goes...
I am so confused. Unsure. Uncertain.
Charlie and I are still together, but I don't know if I want to keep this going. I've been talking to a cute Japanese-white halffie from UCR, and he's been contacting me ever since we met. And he lives a lot closer, and is better eye-candy. Charlie cares for me, Charlie, on the other hand... I know he really likes me, cares for me, treats me differently compared to everyone else. So I guess i'm in a pickle. Should I hang on to him? ugh I don't even know.
He's like idk why you'd date me you're so out of my league, blah blah blah... And honestly, I feel flattered. I can do better, but maybe the better won't be my ideal. He might not be as appreciative, He might just be a plain douchebag. Idk... i keep thinking about the future and all, and I really don't see a future w him. I've been ignoring texts and stuff from everyone (b/c I just got back and also because of the gramapa thing, but mostly because I'm a lazyass lol) but I don't know why I'm in this relationship where we don't know when I can see him again. sigh. If I start getting cozy with someone once school starts, I think I'll break it to him... That'll be fun. man. Life is hard. lol
hokaayyy I'm not really helping myself by staying up late... saying it's because of the jet lag hahaha. mmkays
oh and Shingeki no Kyojin? So. freaking. good. ♡
mikasa♡♡