another misplaced entry
I'm soooo angry right now. And, I guess I kind of asked for it....kind of thought that was what the situation was...for the most part liked what the situation was, but I'm still really pissed off. I'm trying to figure out why, and what I should do about it.
There is a solution in front of me. One that would make me very happy....but there are just so many unknowns. I don't think I'm ready to get burned by this. I've been through so much this year.....
I'm usually so careful, almost to the point of paranoia, about making sure people aren't using me. Because the past has shown I emotionally don't deal with it well, even if on some level I'm using them as well. In a lot of ways I'm a neurotic, emotional disaster. I feel like I need a medical bracelet relating to that. Maybe then people would know to stay away.
and also, i kind of thought that I went through high school pretty much invisible. And I was fine with that. I only really cared about what my friends 'in the middle' thought of me anyway. I was the smart, shy, quiet girl. It makes me feel queasy to think that people noticed me....had thoughts/opinions of me......probably said things about me.
and i guess that's what I'm feeling. I probably shouldn't have written it.....but it's never stopped me before.
Always,
Karen
There is a solution in front of me. One that would make me very happy....but there are just so many unknowns. I don't think I'm ready to get burned by this. I've been through so much this year.....
I'm usually so careful, almost to the point of paranoia, about making sure people aren't using me. Because the past has shown I emotionally don't deal with it well, even if on some level I'm using them as well. In a lot of ways I'm a neurotic, emotional disaster. I feel like I need a medical bracelet relating to that. Maybe then people would know to stay away.
and also, i kind of thought that I went through high school pretty much invisible. And I was fine with that. I only really cared about what my friends 'in the middle' thought of me anyway. I was the smart, shy, quiet girl. It makes me feel queasy to think that people noticed me....had thoughts/opinions of me......probably said things about me.
and i guess that's what I'm feeling. I probably shouldn't have written it.....but it's never stopped me before.
Always,
Karen