Happy new year, happy old fiction
I've been spending most of my social media time on Tumblr lately, and through that I finally joined AO3.
Doing so has been weird, and right now I'm in a mental funk that isn't a good one. Let's see if I can break it down in a coherent way.
*I have been writing, working on original fiction that was inspired by some of the fan fiction I had written. This is no surprise to people who've read this blog or know fannish me. *crickets*
*For the most part, I gave up writing fan fiction 6 years ago, but lately I'm doing more pieces. Ideas come. I write.
*Yesterday I discovered complete swaths of fan fiction (bandom, mostly, but some smut) that I'd forgotten I'd written. There are many pieces, and some of them are even good. Plus, I see how consistent I've been with my tropes and what interests me to write about.
Pros:
*I'm a writer. I've written. I still have some mental hang-ups about what it means to be a writer. No, I am one. I've written quite a lot since I started writing fiction at age 25.
*As noted above, I'm consistent with the things I like.
Cons:
*I wonder if I'm just writing the same things over again. It is said a lot of people who write get into a rut. I won't say my whole life has been a rut because that would be too drama queen. But still... the same stuff.
*I wrote a fictionalized version of myself in a fantasy story where I met my favorite celebrity because his and my work collided. The story is good! I wonder if there's a way to file the serial numbers off it and recycle it somehow. This is a "con," though, because I kind of miss that person I was in the story and the opportunities she had.
Since it was also a bittersweet romance, I'm bothered that nothing in my actual life has changed. People love me, and I love myself. But I don't have *that* kind of relationship that I've always wanted. It's depressing.
Doing so has been weird, and right now I'm in a mental funk that isn't a good one. Let's see if I can break it down in a coherent way.
*I have been writing, working on original fiction that was inspired by some of the fan fiction I had written. This is no surprise to people who've read this blog or know fannish me. *crickets*
*For the most part, I gave up writing fan fiction 6 years ago, but lately I'm doing more pieces. Ideas come. I write.
*Yesterday I discovered complete swaths of fan fiction (bandom, mostly, but some smut) that I'd forgotten I'd written. There are many pieces, and some of them are even good. Plus, I see how consistent I've been with my tropes and what interests me to write about.
Pros:
*I'm a writer. I've written. I still have some mental hang-ups about what it means to be a writer. No, I am one. I've written quite a lot since I started writing fiction at age 25.
*As noted above, I'm consistent with the things I like.
Cons:
*I wonder if I'm just writing the same things over again. It is said a lot of people who write get into a rut. I won't say my whole life has been a rut because that would be too drama queen. But still... the same stuff.
*I wrote a fictionalized version of myself in a fantasy story where I met my favorite celebrity because his and my work collided. The story is good! I wonder if there's a way to file the serial numbers off it and recycle it somehow. This is a "con," though, because I kind of miss that person I was in the story and the opportunities she had.
Since it was also a bittersweet romance, I'm bothered that nothing in my actual life has changed. People love me, and I love myself. But I don't have *that* kind of relationship that I've always wanted. It's depressing.