The Life I Live In...
"Connie, you're so nice! You always commit on helping friends!"
"Connie, you're such a nerd! XD Just kidding! What do we have today?"
"Connie, can I borrow your pen for a second?"
"Connie is always nice! ^___^"
"Connie gets mad easily, but hey, she's still a good friend! Sometimes agressive, but a good friend! ^__^"
Day by day compliments like that come. I'm glad I have them, but sometimes I wonder if I am just a tool so everybody can use and get help with. I wasn't born a stupid person or a doll where others control me. I have lost more than alot of people and may have less of what others have. I have lost a cherished friend that I always cry for when I'm in moments where her name is being said. I have lost a freedom to choose. I have lost freedom. I have lost choices. Indeed I feel like a doll, but what people have that I don't are comforting parents, a choice, and freedom.
I always dreamt that if I do become a mother one day, I'd let my kids choose what they like, I'd buy them whatever they want, and I'd take them to places they haven't seen before. I wouldn't really care for a husband just for a child. I'd make that child grow up, make them somewhat smart and decent, never rude, and wouldn't force them to do things they don't want to do.
Today was probably a sad day. I probably failed my social test, but still I had option changes today. Finally, I got French instead of Foods/Art and Angelica got what she wanted Foods/Art. Yes we did switch, but really I wanted Foods/Art, but for the benefit for her I switched. Now I am in a dreadful French class, blind and dumb. In a class filled with tons of...people I hate. Nick probably hates me because I told him I wanted him out of Math F/T for his own good and that is probably why David doesn't talk to me in any of my classes. It's all Robert's fault for telling him. People ask me why, but in my minds they are just dumb. I hate the world. That's right.
I hate Angelica because she has my Foods/Art, she has choices to be made, but she doesn't do them right, and I want to slap her sometimes, because she pisses me off because of her stupidity. Her rudeness just makes me sick! How can she piss off her mom? I mean your mom is probably the one that understands what girls are going through! That's right! I lie so that NOONE gets hurt, but ME. Happy now? You got me to admit the truth. I hate Nick! I hate Robert! I hate you all! *is crying like hell* You all make me sick! Don't think i just put on a happy face I am what I am!
There isn't a need to make me feel uncomfortable there in Foods/Art! I have already Mel and AJ at my table that hangs out with Ben! I have David who doesn't talk to me probably due to Nick! I have to owe one to Robert who was sooooo big mouthed! I have Nick who hates me! I have a room filled with idiots, jackasses, and more of those dumbfuckers! Now that Angelica is in that class Nick can go flirting his ass off! Mark can talk all he likes! David can do more talking! Robert could actually be happy with Angelica there since they aren't in the same goddamn hmrm! I'm stuck in French with fuckers, Annailese, and a whole class of friggin nerds~! I'M SICK OF YOU ALL!
*passes out from the sudden outburst*
-Amy-
Hi, my name is Amy, or usually known as Yukirin. Currently yes, Connie has been experiencing a bad day. She probably doesn't mean half of the things she said up there, but some she does. She does speak from the heart, but hides it all from you. Don't worry Connie will be back to her normal self again. =D So please respect her for that and don't be mad at her.
"Connie, you're such a nerd! XD Just kidding! What do we have today?"
"Connie, can I borrow your pen for a second?"
"Connie is always nice! ^___^"
"Connie gets mad easily, but hey, she's still a good friend! Sometimes agressive, but a good friend! ^__^"
Day by day compliments like that come. I'm glad I have them, but sometimes I wonder if I am just a tool so everybody can use and get help with. I wasn't born a stupid person or a doll where others control me. I have lost more than alot of people and may have less of what others have. I have lost a cherished friend that I always cry for when I'm in moments where her name is being said. I have lost a freedom to choose. I have lost freedom. I have lost choices. Indeed I feel like a doll, but what people have that I don't are comforting parents, a choice, and freedom.
I always dreamt that if I do become a mother one day, I'd let my kids choose what they like, I'd buy them whatever they want, and I'd take them to places they haven't seen before. I wouldn't really care for a husband just for a child. I'd make that child grow up, make them somewhat smart and decent, never rude, and wouldn't force them to do things they don't want to do.
Today was probably a sad day. I probably failed my social test, but still I had option changes today. Finally, I got French instead of Foods/Art and Angelica got what she wanted Foods/Art. Yes we did switch, but really I wanted Foods/Art, but for the benefit for her I switched. Now I am in a dreadful French class, blind and dumb. In a class filled with tons of...people I hate. Nick probably hates me because I told him I wanted him out of Math F/T for his own good and that is probably why David doesn't talk to me in any of my classes. It's all Robert's fault for telling him. People ask me why, but in my minds they are just dumb. I hate the world. That's right.
I hate Angelica because she has my Foods/Art, she has choices to be made, but she doesn't do them right, and I want to slap her sometimes, because she pisses me off because of her stupidity. Her rudeness just makes me sick! How can she piss off her mom? I mean your mom is probably the one that understands what girls are going through! That's right! I lie so that NOONE gets hurt, but ME. Happy now? You got me to admit the truth. I hate Nick! I hate Robert! I hate you all! *is crying like hell* You all make me sick! Don't think i just put on a happy face I am what I am!
There isn't a need to make me feel uncomfortable there in Foods/Art! I have already Mel and AJ at my table that hangs out with Ben! I have David who doesn't talk to me probably due to Nick! I have to owe one to Robert who was sooooo big mouthed! I have Nick who hates me! I have a room filled with idiots, jackasses, and more of those dumbfuckers! Now that Angelica is in that class Nick can go flirting his ass off! Mark can talk all he likes! David can do more talking! Robert could actually be happy with Angelica there since they aren't in the same goddamn hmrm! I'm stuck in French with fuckers, Annailese, and a whole class of friggin nerds~! I'M SICK OF YOU ALL!
*passes out from the sudden outburst*
-Amy-
Hi, my name is Amy, or usually known as Yukirin. Currently yes, Connie has been experiencing a bad day. She probably doesn't mean half of the things she said up there, but some she does. She does speak from the heart, but hides it all from you. Don't worry Connie will be back to her normal self again. =D So please respect her for that and don't be mad at her.