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what the fuck, seriously. why am i seemingly doomed to ruin every wonderful and amazing friendship that comes my way? it's because i'm a scheaming, scandalous, emotionless stonewall bitch, apparantly. so, i don't know what the hell i'm trying to get at here and i've no clue why i'm taking it to livejournal except that the person i'd love to reach seems to be avoiding me at all costs. and really, i don't know why. we just stopped talking, i guess. she got a new, exciting boyfriend and became engrossed in that while i became engrossed in other things. then i said some stupid shit to heather that wasn't really meant to offend, just to question certain actions on her part. and in hindsight i realize those things shouldn't have been said, because, how hypocritical of me! i was doing the very same thing, wasn't i. and now i'd like to appologize very sincerely & mend things that have been broken. it's not very often that someone so perfectly suited to be your friend comes along, and of course when it does happen i involve myself in some catty drama. of course. what i'm trying to say is, PLEASE TALK TO ME. i'd really love to be your friend again; i'd love to sit in your room and listen to shitty music, go through your mom's closet and make fun of her shoes, play with your cats and eat goldfish & cheezwhizzzzz. oh, and, give you coolio hair. seriously, we never even got that chance to get that close. and i know you're sick so don't stress about this, it's pretty much my fault. i just really miss you, man. please call me. or comment. or something.